:'(Just spoke to Mrs. L on the phone after smsing her. I told her my feelings about how I was very concerned about how there is only one December training. Guess I was a bit rude... 'cos she thought I was rude... and asked me to called her so I did... and then she said stuff... which made me cry.

She said that I was trying to be a hero captain even though I'm not a captain anymore. And that she'll look at me funny when I want to help the team next time. I asked her why and she explained that it's become during my term of being vice-cap I never even was a hero captain. And she made it sound like a didn't do much so I guess... yeah. She said some other stuff like how this came from MOE... Hiiaz

So loser right? To not be able to do anything well on the bright side - I tried. It feels so sad that she thinks that I was a lousy vice-capt. My mind is telling me I am not by showing me all the memories but in my heart I'm still doubting myself.

I guess I'm only typing this out 'cos I don't know where else to go. It feels lonely. But I want to be alone because I don't want to bother other people to have to listen to such a shitty story. I just want something to be happy about or perhaps someone to hug and cry on till I can't cry anymore.

Sad. Don't pity me, it'll just make you sad too. Time to wash up and pretend to be happy.

Wow blogger is blue!? Hoho, I'm quite tired now so I'm just going to try to do a quick post and hopefully go watch some Junjou Romantica.

Well O levels ended on Monday with Physics MCQ... wow it seemed so long ago because this 3 days was really packed! On Monday, went shopping with Tess. First we got psychoed by 2 guys who wanted to do some survey. They were from Herbalife. They tried to persuade us to pay about $75 just to go to Orchard to drink breakfast for 10 days. It was quite reasonable because they seemed like the honestly wanted to help us lose weight, but then there was this woman there who was super irritating. We said that we have to ask our parents first 'cos we're still 16/17 and all and she was like, "Don't you have any savings? You need to ask you parents if you can buy McDonalds?" Bitchhh. Well then after that we went to H&M, where we did not buy anything. So disappointing! Most of the clothes there were for winter. Well I guess you can say that it's not as great as it seems, seriously. Ok then after that we went to F21, then proceeded to Takashimaya then Wisma (where I saw my mum O_O) and then Ion. Mm, it was really fun. After that met up with my mum and bought almost all the stuff I really wanted :) Went home with, 1 grad dress, 2 shirts, 1 shorts hoho.

Then on Tuesday, I went for HC trg for the first time. (7.30am @ Macr) TORTURE MAN! It's insta-red ('cos I didn't put sunblock), insta-blister trg. Today (Tuesday) I officialy have 9 blisters just on my hands. Woke up at 5.50 and took 48 then chged to 166 @ Little India! I took raptor and we did a 2k warmup, 2k x5 time trial then 4k warmdown. Was damn slow :( Got trashed by the girls team hahah. Anyway I just wanted to record my timings and what I did, so I thought I'll just blog them. Well, first 2k set was 13.34, second was 14.10 and then the subsequent timings were plus about 1 minute each set which was really depressing. But hey, I tried hard. And the boat is damn squeezy! Sigh, too fat alr. Went with Wenqi, this CGS girl who also DSAed. She's really funny and entertaining seriously. Damn cute hahah and fun to talk to/joke arnd with. So happy that we're like 'future teammates', Sarah too hoho. Trg was really tough. I started to think about food at like 10.30am. Trg ended at arnd 12 and then I took bus and only got food at like 1 plus nearing 2 I think D: Afthat I went home and watched one ep of Fairy Tail, then went to Amila's sch! We went to Suntec after that. Was damn fun meeting her again. I realized we were only friends in sch for like 2 yrs (in sec1 and sec2) before she transferred to Broadrick, and now we're still best friends! Hooray Hoohah :D We went to PastaMania first, then New Look, then CarreFour (idk how to sp) and then a lot of places la! I bought 39 bucks worth of sports attire, 1 iPhone portable charger and one superman dri-fit which is ubercool! :B Well, then I went home and finally watched 1 ep of Junjou Romantica I mean srsly 1 ep a day is NOT ENOUGH.

Today was another hectic day. Went for HC trg again and I was gonna be late so got mum to send... Well then for trg we did rounds at the bay, followed by 5 x 1k time trial I think, then 4 x 500+250m then 4k warmdown if I'm not wrong. My 1k time trial was like 6.20 (going up) then 6.30, (going down), then 7, then 6.23? (notsure) but yeah 6 MINS orz. Peter came down, haha. Was thinking about some nostalgic stuff during trg too sigh. And my 11:11 wish didn't come true today sigh sigh. Ok well then aft trg went to meet mum at Parkway! Picked sis up from her sch then went to eat at PastaMania, then aft that bro went to cut hair then we went to the dentist! Was actually supposed to get retainers today but my teeth still had some gaps. Aw, probably next month. Which is damn fast and cool. ^^v He put invisible rubber bans this time. Then went to cut hair at Wisma. Looks awesome now! My hairdresser was a Japanese, and I looked more Japanese when I went out of the shop :) Went for guitar class @ Tampines Mall though I was 30 mins late. It's seriously very fun to play. I hope I can get my own guitar soon so I can practise! After that did eyebrow shaping at Tampines1 lol PAIN ._.

Well I'm going to go put aloe vera cream for my sunburn and then hopefully have enough episode to watch one ep of Junjou Romantica... ta! Sorry for the long blogpost with no pics. Will try to write more interestingly so even I would want to read it in the future again~ Ja!

I'm so happy! This anime is purely romance and, I just love it even though it's yaoi.

"Is there a limit to how much you can love somebody?
No matter how much I hurt him and get hurt by him,
I find myself far from hating him, actually hoping that those wounds would scar like burns...
... because then you can never forget me.
And you will never, ever be able to leave my side.
Loving someone so madly and helplessly like this...
I will never love like this again"

Junjou Romantica.

P/S I bought Yakitate! Japan last Friday and have almost finished the whole series. Yum~