☆strawberrykimmie

Oh Nuuu!

2012-01-30T13:05:00.002+08:00

So I've been trying to find a new blogskin really desperately and I've failed!!! D:

SORRY ALL~

kimmie

Awesum People

2012-01-28T23:52:00.003+08:00

Realized that I've been such an asshole lately because all I think about are the friends I can't have. I really gotta start caring much much more about the ones who go through the hell of listening to me talk about the ones who aren't there. Sorry I took you all for granted :(

I know I've been acting like a jerk recently... Getting angry, being tired, acting childish when I'm just so tired, spamming emo tweets~ Thank you so much for being so understanding about my tough training schedule. And to those who always reply to my emo emo tweets, thank you! :)

All this talk is useless, only actions will be able to make you understand that I'm truly grateful. Well, time to make more time for the people that make life worth living.

kimmie

3/4 Way Through the Dark Tunnel

2012-01-28T22:42:00.005+08:00

Blog posts so sad. Anyway, I've recently finished reading all the updates of another shoujo manga called L♥DK. It's been brightening up my mood for the past few days 'coz I'm such a sucker for romance. Comedy too! :D

Well, I feel super tired this week but what to do? Trained everyday from Wed till Sat. Morning training continuously for 3 days is seriously hell. I'm really confused over whether I should go for training even though I feel so tired. It's like I already know I can't produce many good sets today and on top of that, if I go for training I will not have the option to slack so I might just push myself over and get injured or fall sick. Then again it's not like I can skip training so easily. High responsibility here over this and a few other matters. Other matters such as firstly, the boat I'm using needs to be taken care of very carefully, secondly, I have to be conscious that I'm going to become a senior so I have to learn how to be a good one fast, and so on. On the side note, I don't think I'll get to experience being a junior for much longer because of all the newbiez coming in, damnnn!

I really wish for more time. It's like my holidays flew past and school is starting next week. I guess I signed a deal with the devil. I get the opportunity to go to Hwa Chong and continue canoeing in exchange for litte, controlled freedom and much torture. Yep. Today was the Geog challenge and I didn't attend at all :/ I wonder how it went yet I'm a bit scared to ask because I didn't go when I said I would. What I did today was instead: Go for training, lunch at HC (supposedly Kee Wei's farewell lunch, that's the only reason I went) (Kee Wei is last year's boys team captain and he's very very nice), a bit of study session then rush off to meet Vanessa at airport, super late for church so I didn't go (guilty again), slept from about 6.30~8.30 and I've been slacking for the last two hours... (wow I just realized...) Sigh, life's in a MESS.

Today, training was quite depressing. My timings seemingly deproved drastically from last year even though I can say that I've been training much harder than before. Perhaps I just need more time to catch back up but I would definitely not like to stagnate at the same timing for a year, plus the fact that I'm training much harder. On the other hand, I felt so tired today while doing sets. Halfway through my second 1000m set I started having a runny nose which shows that I haven't been sleeping enough. Yep, so I don't know why I sorta slowed down. Also, the teacher said something about my mentality that really pissed me off. I fight back okay, maybe not all the time but I do try. I really hate it when I'm here trying so hard and there you are, easily saying that I'm NOT. Haven't you seen me fight back and catch up? Last time, even though I was 25m behind (a whole buoy!), I caught up with my opponent, and just because today I was quite tired and you said that about me, I was kinda pissed -.- Thanks. That day even, you said 2 people in our team had weak mentalities just because they did not come for training. I think they are smart people who know how to rest and actually have the guts to. I felt that it was really horrible of you to say such things behind their back even though they also train hard.

Sigh okay, I gotta stop talking about training before I get "found out" just because I wrote something wrong. Hm, how about no kaypoh people at my blog huh? Please press the X button on the top right if you're one! Okay, although I haven't blogged all out, I need to practise some guitar now before tomorrow's class. I haven't touched it in two weeks! Deaaad!

Here's two camwhore photos like I used to post before :P

New cam! Promised you guys some high quality pix x) so here's some of myself hahahahaha. Anw that's the dress I wore for CNY second day.

CHEEEEEEEERS~

kimmie

Coffee

2012-01-26T21:49:00.004+08:00

Sian ;_; your mum tells me not to worry.

But I can't help it. I don't know what to feel anymore :'( I'm so angry and sad; frustrated. I don't understand why your mum says "I think he doesn't know how to tell you" or something like that. Haven't you known me well enough to understand that I'll accept whatever you think is embarrassing or 'weird' about yourself because I consider you a very good friend. In fact best friends once and now I don't know where we stand - friends, are we even?

Sigh, I just, feel so sad :'( and I think about it everyday, how you're not around. I always wonder when you're coming back. New Year? Maybe when IP starts... Chinese New Year...? It didn't happen... How am I going to react when you come back? Ignore you? 'Cause I'm so so frustrated. Talk to you? It's so awkward to do so because I have no idea what to say. "Oh you're back." I just decided to go for the 'natural' reaction, but what will it be? Will I get so angry that I cry, like in the dream? The fact that there's training almost everyday makes it barely bearable.

I'm going crazy I guess. I hate it. I hate how I cannot be fully happy anymore.

kimmie

Setting It Up!!!

2012-01-23T12:23:00.001+08:00

I think what's been missing all this time is good music omg :)

I think I'm also a bit bipolar oh noooz 'cos I'm suddenly so happy now heheheheheee.

Listening to THE BOYS. SNSD needs a new single NOW NOW NOW and I need to go find new kpop songs now now now oh goshhhz :X Slacking feels damn good ;)

oh and I'm setting up my camera now. High quality shots soon yeah lolol xD

kimmie

Happy CNY?

2012-01-23T02:43:00.003+08:00

Been emo-ing these past few days, or more accurately, I'm not as bubbly as before. It's all about forcing myself to see the light, it doesn't come naturally, that fresh feeling everyday when I greet my friends and classmates. I miss KC. I'm tired 24/7 too.

Sigh, I miss staying up late and having friends to pei me online. And going to sleep together with that friend so I won't be online alone because I won't ever want to sign-off if it wasn't for that other person signing off too. The online atmosphere feels really lonely now... Heh.

I don't know... and everything just feels not right. Perhaps it's just this weird transition period to JC. Sigh. I don't wanna go to sleep... I need someone to tell me to do so.

Sorry I'm not making any sense but I'll post this anyway. Not really in the CNY mood though.

If I was in the CNY mood it'll be like...

HAPPY YEAR OF THE WATER DRAGON EVERYONE! teehee

I don't wanna try to be fake happy because I find it disgusting. But I hate being sad and burdening my friends too. I also don't know how to find real happiness also. I sound so dumb, k nvm lolol.

kimmie

FYI!

2012-01-18T11:57:00.002+08:00

Dear dear online sanctuary,

right now I've got myself in a mess. I thought the place that I wished so hard to get into was a haven. What could've gone wrong? I had motivation, I had determination, wasn't that all I needed? Well no, it's wasn't enough, and what I signed up for was actually hell on earth. What's wrong with this place you ask? The mastermind. The person who's in-charge of it all.

Scolding scolding scolding. That's all I remember from training. I don't find happiness in improving myself anymore, I see it as a chore now. Just to go down and get scolded. Don't you know any other way to communicate? You always talk about using the best methods but what you're using is the worst. It makes people want to walk away and never come back and all you do is scold the rest as though it's their fault when they're the ones that are keeping it alive. You blame yourself too but have you ever asked yourself what is that problem about you that makes people want to stay away? Guess not.

I hate being forced to do things. I HATE IT. You're gonna tell me things like: Well get used to it. But seriously, how can a person improve exponentially without the want to. Impossible, all that happens is little and slow improvement. All I think about is leaving. Leaving this screwed up place 'cos all it gives me is STRESS I SWEAR OMG AND I'M SERIOUS.

This is no RANT post. 'Cos even after I talk about it, no weight is gone -.- This is s e r i o u s.

On the bright side. I took of my braces :)

kimmie

Bumpy Start

2012-01-09T22:36:00.003+08:00

Okay so it's high time I blogged because I have so damn much pent up feelings I wish to release in the hopes of feeling better.

So, yesterday I got back my O level results. I got 9, same as my prelim score but what the heck. I got B3 for English!? A2 for Chem!? B3 for combined humans!? These didn't meet my expectations, but here's the few that did: A1 for Emath, A1 for AMATHS, A1 FOR PHYSICS and A1 for GEOGRAPHY! Omg! I don't intend to brag but seriously, I didn't expect to get A1 for Physics and Geog. Yes I worked hard but then, for Physics, I really felt that I screwed the paper and for Geog, I have never gotten an A1 in my sec3/4 life! Right now as I'm blogging, I feel really insecure about my English. I mean B3!? Come on lah... whatever it's over~

Case 2: Girls team issues & HC.
Okay so yesterday and the few days before, I was really reconsidering about whether I should join HC. Well you see, I'm not really comfortable in the girls team. I mean, they're nice and all but so guai! I just don't know how to put it, it's just so... standard and unteammish. I barely laugh during training anymore, not to mention, I find their jokes funny so I guess it's just because I'm different lah, they're not horrible people or whatever. But in the end, I'm choosing to go to HC. It feels like the best option. Mmhm, hopefully I'll make my own friends there and feel much better :)

Case 3... I don't know whether to type this out or not but it's been on my mind 24/7. Klieow. Omg :( My (used to be?) very good friend, who's suddenly gone missing for 1 freaking whole month. At first I was bloody hell worried but then, it seems that he's alive but just shutting everyone else out. I call his hp, its off. I call his hse, he leaves the phone hanging. I've started to think that he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. No birthday wish, no good luck for O level results, NOTHING. And I thought we were good friends? Sometimes I blame myself, maybe it's because I show too little care so I don't deserve to get a birthday wish, like maybe I should have gone to his house to check out whether he's really fine and all but now that he's rejecting all my calls should I even go? It seems that he doesn't want to see me at all. Maybe my persistence is just pissing him off. Ergh, speak of the devil!

Argh this post didn't really help but ohwell! ;_;

kimmie

HNY!

2012-01-01T20:21:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year everyone! The holidays have been hectic for me. It was mainly made up of HC training which is only partially fun (it's only fun when Sarah is around... I have a lot to say about this but I don't even know if I can spill my feelings here, I'm short of time now anyway so I'll save it for some other time maybe)

Moving on, here is my birthday wishlist! I don't think anybody will really see this but if anyone asks me what I want for my birthday, well, I'll direct them here!

Wishlist in no particular order!

I want to make my own Build-A-Bear! It would be so romantic if my future bf let me do this woohooh~

I want mangas, well I need Gakuen Alice 10! I have 11 and I'm gonna get 12 so 10 would really be appreciated! B.O.D.Y. from Vol 10 and abv, Fruits Basket from Vol 3 and abv would also be appreciated very much! I told quite a few people I want manga for my birthday so I hope no one clashes (it'd be real sad, but I don't have many friends anyway so I don't think it'll clash at all...)

I want anime too lol, Fairy Tail, Gakuen Alice, Junjou Romantica, Air Gear, hm, there may be more but I can't remember at the moment....

Let's see, I want a Brasca (spellcheck?) X paddle! Coach said that he'd rent me for 20$ per month but I'm too paiseh. I don't really want to buy it 'cos I'm scared it'll label me as K1 for the rest of my life 'cos I have a different paddle. And my days of bringing my paddle around is coming to an end because we're prolly moving back to Macr next week so there's no need to bring it from Kallang to Macr and back... but I don't have a paddle now... okay let's not talk like I'm getting in. Honestly I'm reluctant to get in and yet I'm scared that I won't get in ._. Argh Okay forget the paddle... I just wish that if I had to take K1 for Canoe Marathon, I'll get to use my favourite boat and my favourite paddle and if it's not asking for too much, my favourite life jacket too (KC no. 11)! Gah but that's just a faraway dream.

Mm, there isn't really much to this list but maybe I'll update when I think of something.

Things money can't give:

I want my whole clique to be there for my bday celebration @ USS.

I want one of my very good friends to stop ignoring my calls and call me back/wish me/talk to me, dude I miss you v much ok. It's really depressing. I need to blog this out too :(

I want time to go out with Jol/Char/Hilary/Nerin/Classmates, everyone srsly.

I want more friends in the HC team... I just feel v alone when Van/Mel/Sarah are not around.

Gonna end post here 'cos there's trg tmr and I need to prep!

P.S. I dislike getting foody presents. If you're thinking about getting me food, I would like:

Reese mini peanut butter cups

Haagan Dazs coffee ice cream

yupp, as for my favourite biscuit, it is Loackers! the normal choco one! ^^

kimmie

It's My Fault

2011-11-24T19:36:00.003+08:00

:'(Just spoke to Mrs. L on the phone after smsing her. I told her my feelings about how I was very concerned about how there is only one December training. Guess I was a bit rude... 'cos she thought I was rude... and asked me to called her so I did... and then she said stuff... which made me cry.

She said that I was trying to be a hero captain even though I'm not a captain anymore. And that she'll look at me funny when I want to help the team next time. I asked her why and she explained that it's become during my term of being vice-cap I never even was a hero captain. And she made it sound like a didn't do much so I guess... yeah. She said some other stuff like how this came from MOE... Hiiaz

So loser right? To not be able to do anything well on the bright side - I tried. It feels so sad that she thinks that I was a lousy vice-capt. My mind is telling me I am not by showing me all the memories but in my heart I'm still doubting myself.

I guess I'm only typing this out 'cos I don't know where else to go. It feels lonely. But I want to be alone because I don't want to bother other people to have to listen to such a shitty story. I just want something to be happy about or perhaps someone to hug and cry on till I can't cry anymore.

Sad. Don't pity me, it'll just make you sad too. Time to wash up and pretend to be happy.

kimmie

Hectic!

2011-11-16T22:47:00.003+08:00

Wow blogger is blue!? Hoho, I'm quite tired now so I'm just going to try to do a quick post and hopefully go watch some Junjou Romantica.

Well O levels ended on Monday with Physics MCQ... wow it seemed so long ago because this 3 days was really packed! On Monday, went shopping with Tess. First we got psychoed by 2 guys who wanted to do some survey. They were from Herbalife. They tried to persuade us to pay about $75 just to go to Orchard to drink breakfast for 10 days. It was quite reasonable because they seemed like the honestly wanted to help us lose weight, but then there was this woman there who was super irritating. We said that we have to ask our parents first 'cos we're still 16/17 and all and she was like, "Don't you have any savings? You need to ask you parents if you can buy McDonalds?" Bitchhh. Well then after that we went to H&M, where we did not buy anything. So disappointing! Most of the clothes there were for winter. Well I guess you can say that it's not as great as it seems, seriously. Ok then after that we went to F21, then proceeded to Takashimaya then Wisma (where I saw my mum O_O) and then Ion. Mm, it was really fun. After that met up with my mum and bought almost all the stuff I really wanted :) Went home with, 1 grad dress, 2 shirts, 1 shorts hoho.

Then on Tuesday, I went for HC trg for the first time. (7.30am @ Macr) TORTURE MAN! It's insta-red ('cos I didn't put sunblock), insta-blister trg. Today (Tuesday) I officialy have 9 blisters just on my hands. Woke up at 5.50 and took 48 then chged to 166 @ Little India! I took raptor and we did a 2k warmup, 2k x5 time trial then 4k warmdown. Was damn slow :( Got trashed by the girls team hahah. Anyway I just wanted to record my timings and what I did, so I thought I'll just blog them. Well, first 2k set was 13.34, second was 14.10 and then the subsequent timings were plus about 1 minute each set which was really depressing. But hey, I tried hard. And the boat is damn squeezy! Sigh, too fat alr. Went with Wenqi, this CGS girl who also DSAed. She's really funny and entertaining seriously. Damn cute hahah and fun to talk to/joke arnd with. So happy that we're like 'future teammates', Sarah too hoho. Trg was really tough. I started to think about food at like 10.30am. Trg ended at arnd 12 and then I took bus and only got food at like 1 plus nearing 2 I think D: Afthat I went home and watched one ep of Fairy Tail, then went to Amila's sch! We went to Suntec after that. Was damn fun meeting her again. I realized we were only friends in sch for like 2 yrs (in sec1 and sec2) before she transferred to Broadrick, and now we're still best friends! Hooray Hoohah :D We went to PastaMania first, then New Look, then CarreFour (idk how to sp) and then a lot of places la! I bought 39 bucks worth of sports attire, 1 iPhone portable charger and one superman dri-fit which is ubercool! :B Well, then I went home and finally watched 1 ep of Junjou Romantica I mean srsly 1 ep a day is NOT ENOUGH.

Today was another hectic day. Went for HC trg again and I was gonna be late so got mum to send... Well then for trg we did rounds at the bay, followed by 5 x 1k time trial I think, then 4 x 500+250m then 4k warmdown if I'm not wrong. My 1k time trial was like 6.20 (going up) then 6.30, (going down), then 7, then 6.23? (notsure) but yeah 6 MINS orz. Peter came down, haha. Was thinking about some nostalgic stuff during trg too sigh. And my 11:11 wish didn't come true today sigh sigh. Ok well then aft trg went to meet mum at Parkway! Picked sis up from her sch then went to eat at PastaMania, then aft that bro went to cut hair then we went to the dentist! Was actually supposed to get retainers today but my teeth still had some gaps. Aw, probably next month. Which is damn fast and cool. ^^v He put invisible rubber bans this time. Then went to cut hair at Wisma. Looks awesome now! My hairdresser was a Japanese, and I looked more Japanese when I went out of the shop :) Went for guitar class @ Tampines Mall though I was 30 mins late. It's seriously very fun to play. I hope I can get my own guitar soon so I can practise! After that did eyebrow shaping at Tampines1 lol PAIN ._.

Well I'm going to go put aloe vera cream for my sunburn and then hopefully have enough episode to watch one ep of Junjou Romantica... ta! Sorry for the long blogpost with no pics. Will try to write more interestingly so even I would want to read it in the future again~ Ja!

kimmie

Back to Anime!

2011-11-12T13:59:00.004+08:00

I'm so happy! This anime is purely romance and, I just love it even though it's yaoi.

"Is there a limit to how much you can love somebody?
No matter how much I hurt him and get hurt by him,
I find myself far from hating him, actually hoping that those wounds would scar like burns...
... because then you can never forget me.
And you will never, ever be able to leave my side.
Loving someone so madly and helplessly like this...
I will never love like this again"

Junjou Romantica.

P/S I bought Yakitate! Japan last Friday and have almost finished the whole series. Yum~

kimmie

Colourful Shorts

2011-10-28T23:30:00.004+08:00

Just read a sweet tumblr post. I was happy till I remembered some horrible memories halfway through. And then, I continued to read it but I somewhat knew that I'm not eligible for such a fairytale anymore.

Sigh, nevermind. I still believe in "It can only make you sad if you allow it to." Gonna stay strong and fight on.

On the bright side, I met someone who makes me smile whenever I think of the brief memory we shared. In that sense, at least I have some stuff to bank on to make me auto-happy. Alas, it's been a week since we last met and I'm definitely going to train hard in the hopes of seeing you again :)

kimmie

Pretending

2011-10-11T17:26:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since I've blogged. I guess I was compelled to come online today because I felt the need to release some unwanted feelings. Actually I've been feeling the need to blog for these past few days but never got up to it because once I actually got here, I'll forget the intensity of my feelings and decide to not blog at all.

So here's one feeling that has struck me deeply. Well you see it all started out when a group of friends spontaneously decided that I would be the first to marry. For what reason, I don't know, they agreed on that it would be me, then they started going on about this topic.

Well, honestly I don't think I'll get a boyfriend. And if you ask me personally be it verbally whatsoever, I'll tell you all the superficial reasons why. I mean firstly, I don't have time. I want to pursue my canoeing career, and my studies. And if you delve a little deeper (for those kaypohs who are not satisfied with my first reasoning), I'll tell you that I never really had a 'crush' before so I don't really know... you know that feeling where you go crazy over a guy? When you see him, when he gestures to you, when he messages you, I don't know what you girls get crazy over but yeah, you see my point? So I don't even think I'll have any crushes. (Eyecandys are different)

I can give you many reasons, but all in all they're for the same reason - to hide the truth. I don't think I'm good enough. I've been through so much these past 2 years, and did some things I regret so badly. It still haunts me every time I think about some past events. I don't want a nice capable guy to have a girl like me. That's why when people talk about getting a bf in JC, I'll stand my ground - no. (Esp if you know what JC I'm aspiring to go to maybe you'll understand a bit more, but I doubt you'd understand much because I'm purposely writing in such an ambiguous manner, so feel free to make your own conjectures)

Well, as you can see that I'm absolutely not comfortable talking about this topic, so please don't ask me what do you regret and whatever. I'm getting used to talking about the aforementioned (relationships) so it's okay you don't need to avoid such an interesting topic around me, just don't talk about me ;)

I really need to focus on studying... yeah. I guess the next time I blog will be perhaps after O's. Wish me luck!

kimmie

Food for Thought

2011-09-29T23:31:00.003+08:00

Oh yes, I forgot to rant about something else. I need to get all of this off my chest so I can study in peace so here goes:

I cannot stand people who look down on me or underestimate me. It's the feeling I get when teachers don't know my name or when someone else claims that so, so and so are smart in class and the rest are just average.

I do sound jealous but it's like how you know you've got this under your belt yet the person still asks you "Are you sure?". Maybe the reason why I'm not acknowledged is because I don't work as hard, which is fair, or because I just have some kind of bland character. Maybe I'm just misunderstood.

Well, I guess these are just worthless thoughts. Now that I've thought through, there's really not much merits to being known or talked about anyway. It's irritating and comes with a set of high expectations. So now I know what to do when these thoughts start tugging at the hem of my mind like a spoiled child - ignore them. Practice makes perfect and soon it won't affect me anymore.

Okay, reflection done! Although it took long, at least I got some morals out of it.

kimmie

Last Lap

2011-09-29T22:55:00.003+08:00

Days are starting to become exacting. No matter how much I complete, there's always more and that is what sickens me. If I actually do reach a destination, no time can be wasted and thus the same routine continues. Unfortunately, the extreme mundanity of my life right now is torturous yet necessary.

Interactions between friends have fallen significantly and this will inevitably lead to a rise in miscommunications. Thus, I really hope that everyone understands this to prevent broken friendships and relationships gone sour. What everyone needs now is trust. To trust your friends, that they have good intentions and perhaps it was just said wrongly or perceived differently; that they are mature enough not to flare up over trivial matters. It is not the time for fighting and drama.

It's as if we're all suffering alone together but yet everyone must stay strong so that the total, as well as each individuals' strength is increased from each others' support.

On the side note, my L1R5 decreased by more than half for prelims, hooray :) Jiayou everybody!

kimmie

Birthdays

2011-09-21T10:26:00.002+08:00

Many birthday's coming up/missed so I gotta get ready the presents for... (Making mental note)
Not in order whatsoever

Claire
Sylvia
Jolene
Joey
Charlotte
Sarah *
Sabrina
Amila
Vanessa
Felicia
Dianty
Godma
....
man this list is damn long....

kimmie

Semi-Movie Marathon

2011-09-19T21:18:00.003+08:00

I've had this urge to blog since yesterday, for no concrete reason I guess.

Today was Geog Paper 2. After the paper Vik, Hilary and I went to eat breakfast at Macs and then rented 2 movies from Video Ezy and came to my house to watch. They were...

Mr. & Mrs. Smith

and

INCEPTION

Two freaking awesome movies. It was my first time watching Mrs. & Mr. Smith and my second time watching INCEPTION. Inception is mind-blowing, you just needa watch it more than once to understand it's awesomeness. Plus it has Leonardo Dicaprio!

Today is also quite significant, I mean, it's my Kor's birthday (and several other people's) and also three years after our wedding HAHAH. Secondary 1 times. Can't believe I was so !@#$%^ then. What's the word for it? Annoying? Childish? Well, refer to posts @ here Oh boy I love reading my posts back then, it's so light-hearted and funny.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOR :P

It's also my Godma's birthday! c:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA!

I feel so serious now. HAHA, WHATEVER. I'M STILL MYSELF ANYWAYS! (When am I ever that serious? :P)

After reading some of my Secondary 1 posts I feel so paiseh LOL. My typing is so different now HEEHHAHAHEHEA.

kimmie

Lalala~

2011-09-15T19:43:00.003+08:00

Listening to Westlife songs now.

Didn't know they were so awesome...

Biggest sin commited man, what did I do so right to deserve to listen to this heaven?

If a boy sang one of their songs to me I'll +5. If it's a song from them that I like, +10! ^^

Valuable Lesson

2011-09-15T13:17:00.004+08:00

In the middle of prelims now. Near the end at least.

Many things happened this week...

Well on Sunday I went out with Gina (this is a fake name), and it was alright at first. Then I got hurt really badly because I found out that she didn't accept me for who I was. Not only that, she was afraid that someone would see us going out together. All this time I always thought I could go to her and even regarded her as sort of a best friend, someone I can be myself, go all out to. I won't need to HIDE anything. Well I guess I was wrong, then slowly I've started to realize I've been wrong all this while.

During the last part she offered to walk me home because it was on her way, and I broke down because I just couldn't stand hearing anymore of what she felt. I felt so horrible then, but then after I broke down she started being nice to me and she totally changed on the spot. After that she's been trying to patch up our friendship but I know it'll never be the same.

I've changed, I guess. I'm not so naive now, just so you know.

But no worries I haven't given up on the world. Why? It's because of all my other friends who make me believe in friendship and love. (Not in order...)

Hilary, Victoria, Joey, Tess, Amila, Dorea, Charlotte, Jolene and many more... My clique... Classmates...

If your name is not here, not to worry I like you too for even bothering to come here and care for me. (Unless you're a hater haha!)

I would say that life's brighter now with all that worry put behind and delt with.

I can now go out into the world with an almost full smile on my face (I'm still praying to God for strength to be able to forgive myself for some other things). But nontheless, I'm still happy :)

And a piece of advise for all you people out there seeking happiness:
Forgiving is FREEDOM.
Now set yourself free because nobody else has the ability to hold you back.

Spread the love!

kimmie

Why Am I Writing So Strangely Too?

2011-09-09T21:42:00.001+08:00

You know those movies where the protagonist starts acting weird when a certain date is coming? Well I guess that's what my life is like right now because I cannot think of any other reason for my peculiar behavior. I mean, I don't think I'm consciously acting this way, I really don't know why I am. Stress perhaps?

I kind of know I pushed everything aside. There wasn't really any proper closure, which would explain why the memories still haunt vehemently at times. Well, all I can say is that tomorrow's gonna be a strange day - the part where I'm not spending it with you, that is.

You know, I always wanted to take it slow hahah. Okay stop, I feel uncomfortable already. Woots, night!

kimmie

Doink

2011-09-07T18:42:00.003+08:00

Deleted the last post but here's a summary of it:
I don't like having to make a reference to my past experience of RS.

I think it's time I terminate my fickleness and stand my ground. I'm tired of typing something and then backspacing just because I feel that it's not good enough or not what I truly want to express. If I keep doing that, I'll NEVER be able to articulate myself as well as I want to.

Furthermore I feel that I should talk and type more coherently because my obvious lack of effort to do so makes it extremely difficult to understand what I actually want to say. Therefore I will,
a) Not be lazy to back up something I've said,
b) think clearly before saying things and
c) become more decisive.

Actually I don't think I was like this before so it won't be all that hard to return. Just need to ++confidence and get the spunk back inline.

BOUNCE! :)

kimmie

A Post for

2011-08-21T12:48:00.003+08:00

I'm so happy for Tess Tseng.
Yesterday was a day with minimal regrets.
I'm glad you feel better now (:
Sorry I daoed your sms!
I'm not used to it.
;shy!

kimmie

2011-08-18T23:11:00.002+08:00

My eyesight's worsening as the clock ticks by.

It's been 17 hours since I woke up.

Dance Dance Dance

2011-08-18T21:59:00.002+08:00

Obsession I tell you.

Performers can express themselves through their area of expertise.
What about us athletes.
Maybe I'm dying to express myself without an outlet. Maybe.

Lauren's so awesome!

Matthew Koon :)

D'Angelo and Amanda! Go see all their routines!

I also love Katee x Joshua pairing! ~

kimmie

Blah

2011-08-14T00:16:00.002+08:00

I hate looking at your blog.
I hate remembering how we used to talk.
I hate seeing you hurt because I can't do anything.
what's worst of all is that
we talk so awkwardly now.

and that's what I hate the most. dnycP.

kimmie

LMAO

2011-08-10T21:19:00.003+08:00

I can't help but feel like this every time you pull away. You're slowly slipping out of my grasp. The more nervous I get, the more sweaty my palms become, the faster you slide, away from me.

I need you in my life. Please, I'm begging. Don't leave me.

--

I LOVE MEETING FRIENDS LIKE TESS TSENG. SHE CRACKS ME UP ANY WHERE ANY TIME.
this is for her because she never fails to ask me if I'm alright after reading my blog.

kimmie

iPhone Rant

2011-08-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

Now that we're no more I feel like there's no place to vent. If you're a reader, you're probably sick and tired of reading the same crap but hell i'm ranting here so go watch youtube if you aren't interested!

Why couldn't you have been my best friend? Why couldn't you have waited? You know, maybe you could've gained my utmost trust with time and effort. I sound as though i think the world revolves around me but bear with me because this is merely a small percentage of all my feelings.

What else? You know why? It's cause you were freaking hell the only person who i could tell everything to and now there's no- ah to hell forget it. What's done is done.

This is enough of me for the whole world to see. Even on my own blog i can't express myself fully. Partly cause of my articulation skills and also because i don't want whatever i say/think to create a mess.

Lalala WHATEVER!

kimmie iphone

Random~

2011-08-07T02:03:00.002+08:00

It's 2am, I'm still on the computer.

What the hell are you doing? I say to myself.

No reply. Of course, there's no reason to be here after all.

Why.

You know, it's so funny. How memories can be warped. How something so clear then can be so fuzzy now. You remember your decision back then, and tell yourself you should have taken the other route. Then when you trace back, wondering why you chose otherwise, finding yourself back to square one, making the decision which you have already made. What more do you want of yourself? The rest is out of your control, there was nothing you could do.

Then again, you conceive the possibility of that statement being a lie. A mere hoax to soothe you. In fact, there was plenty, you just chose otherwise.

Carpe Diem.

Shall stop being such a weirdo. NIGHT :)

Compulsion

2011-08-07T00:28:00.004+08:00

I don't know why I'm online.

It's just like how I was compelled to go to the library during free period on Friday and there, I took interest in a book and miraculously decided to borrow it. Since when did I ever borrow from the school library or any library for that matter? Strange.

That wasn't the only miracle. As hard as it is to believe, I finished the book yesterday (Saturday). It's titled "Tell No One" by Harlan Coben and it's a suspense thriller infused with romance, my favourite genre, of course. Best read (only read), since my Twilight streak.

Well, it got me thinking deeper I guess, as with all reading material.

Satisfaction maybe? - The answer to my initial question I mean.

But what am I looking for in the first place? How confusing.

If I don't understand myself, who ever will. People always say they're trying to find themselves, I've never regarded myself as one of those lost sheep but now at least I can empathize a little. I don't even know what I'm rambling on about now, maybe I'm just tired. Or maybe that's just an excuse. I sort of know what I'm looking for, I guess. A friend. A friend who I can pour everything out to. It's not that I don't love my friends now. I just know the feeling, of what it's like to be able to do anything, say anything, whatever and still be loved. And I miss it. That's all. There you go, a conclusion or more of a conjecture, at least I'm getting somewhere.

Maybe I should just stop being so finical and seek solace in what's already here.

DANI SHAY!

kimmie

Supposedly for Geog Notes

2011-08-02T23:05:00.005+08:00

I'm actually online to type out the above-mentioned notes but well... let's hear good news.

Today, I had so many thoughts, which were actually quite substantial. Not your usual, 'Oh, tomorrow I'll...' but rather 'So this newspaper articicle is sort of like trying to get Singaporeans to have more babies?' and 'Woah, Bill Gates and Mark Zuckerberg are Harvard dropouts'. Look how much more informative my thoughts are! The cause: I've started to read the newspaper. This is a big achievement and I think dedicating a whole paragraph is appropriate as I want to remember when I started! Secondary 4, HAHAHA.

I guess, I should continue studying. What else can I do? Maybe I should allocate some time to blog everyday. To attempt using new vocabulary and to fine-tune my grammar and whatsoever, basically just to PRACTISE. Plus it's a good outlet during this intense period of studying.

Well anyway, today's my daughter's birthday! Sabrina. She's awesomely cute and huggable.

Hehe, I just realized how big my "family" is. First it started out with an Audition family where I was the middle sister, then I had another family where I was the wife/mother/grandmother (still on Audition). Then came the ODAC Family Tree where I got married to Sylvia Lim, my dearest wife. Okay, that's kinda it I think, but it seriously involves a hell lot of people. Oh I love them all :) Ohyes, then there's my REAL family uhh, yeah.

kimmie

Dissappointed with Myself

2011-07-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

I feel very down now because of my friends, wait it's always because of my friends that I'll come here to blog. I come here mostly because I don't really know where else to go.

Well you see, I have 2 very close friends in class and right now I'm starting to feel stupid in comparison to them. It wasn't like this before and maybe I should just ignore this feeling but it's hard. They are basically the 2nd and 3rd in my class and I'm at a miserable 20+. It's not this that's upsetting me but the fact that sometimes (I don't know whether it's just me), they ignore my points in an argument/when they don't understand something. As though I'm a whole level below them. They're nice people, they don't purposely do this, I'm just over-sensitive and feel this way. The teachers are not helping either by always remembering the names of a certain few, I never get remembered.

I should basically stop now because all of my classmates (if they ever come here) will definitely know who I'm talking about and I don't want this to be counted as bitching or ill-intentioned and then create a whole fuss when I love them very much.

After this, I still have a best friend who is very dear to me and because of O levels I'm basically rendered useless in being there for her and I hate it. I hate how useless I am.

I guess I have to get used to this feeling until O levels are over and I hope by then, she'll still be there for me, understanding why I've been neglecting her.

Lastly, what started all this was my inability to say anything during that 1 minute given to me during English.

ARGH can't blog anymore. Parents pissing me off yet again.

kimmie

Incomplete

2011-07-22T18:59:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow's my Dad's birthday and I haven't gotten a gift for him yet. Not even a card :( I feel kinda horrible now after finishing Jer's gift even though her birthday was on the 9th (it doesn't look as good as I wanted it to be). But hey, this is the first time I'm meeting up with her after her birthday and my first time doing this kind of gift... so it's not that bad... (I think).

Sighs, gonna rant here. Well, you see, I have 2 close friends. The first one expects everything to be okay with the minimal effort she's putting into our friendship and the second one doesn't even seem to want a friendship with me. Well, what I said is a bit exaggerated and one-sided but seriously I miss the old us like hell. Even though I may look happy now, and you may think I don't need you in my life but I DO. It's just not complete without you both.

I don't care if you see this because I'm too chicken to say it in front of your face so... JPY and YITY, I MISS YOU GUYS :(

Hahah, what am I expecting from putting your initials up here when you'll probably be too busy studying to even stumble upon those tiny words which are so loud in my head.

Gotta go to SSC now to meet Jerin and Laura. Claire's mum is fetching(/bringing?) me there. Just like old times. I miss you too Azu-chan!

kimmie

Monotonous, Mundane, Mechanical

2011-07-17T21:03:00.002+08:00

Still waiting for the letter. I used to countdown to the day they'll start sending. Anxious, excited, worried. Now, I'm counting down to the day they'll stop sending. Dreadful, tired, losing hope.

But alas, life still must go on and I have found other things to think about and anticipate. Like, NCC! I'm going down to support Sabrina, Samantha and Keefe, and I hope to see fantastic results of Felicia's K4 while I'm there too :)

Today I went for Mr. Quek's study session. I really admire him. I mean, he lives in West Coast and comes all the way down to Temasek Poly just to tutor me and Sarah who aren't even HC/have any slightest hint that we'll be getting in. He still can be so patient by answering all our questions, making sure we understand before he continues, then he buy us drinks and snacks.

Oh yes, my old maid came back. The one who took care of me since I was born, till I was 10. Her food tastes so good sometimes I ask my mum whether it's bought. Glad that my prayers have been answered: for her to be safe.

Hahah, well on to the fun side. I'm so happy Kenneth brought out the old fun loving high me. I almost clocked my previous rate of alternate "HAHAHAHAHA" reply per MSN convo. Awesome. I lost the earpiece that I bought with him though :(

Oh yes, I lent my iPhone 3G to someone, so now that cracked screen iPhone is gone. Well, it'll come back soon. Trusting that I've placed it in caring hands.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE BLOGGING ANYMORE BECAUSE IT'S SO BORING. :/ SHALL SEE WHAT HAS BECOME OF MY TUMBLR. BUHBYE BLOGGER.

Conclusion: My life is boring. Why? Because I could blog so easily last time and it was still interesting. Why? O's.

kimmie

Waiting

2011-07-04T11:04:00.002+08:00

Last week was a busy week. Slept after 12 for the whole week completing assignments because I didn't do hol hmwk. Supposed to do the same thing today.

Cried over you last night, I think it's the first time I've done that ever since that day. I'm a really really silly girl.

Sigh, HC's letter still hasn't arrived... Shall go check the mail now. It's been a week since the date for first offer.

kimmie

Still Grumpy

2011-06-28T18:16:00.004+08:00

Been sleeping at 2~3 these past two days with naps in the afternoon. Been talking & thinking about horoscopes lately too, but I'm not supposed to believe in them.

Really, idk what the hell I'm doing in class. I really don't understand Physics at all. No wait, I don't understand HER at all. I used to understand it till SHE started teaching me again. My grades have been slipping ever since. FTS.

Contemplated on asking my Mum for tuition but really, out of the 3 of us (my sibs & me) I'm the one who needs it least. They've got more tuition than me even though their younger so imagine how much my parents are forking out already. (I only have chinese tuition)

Gonna cont. doing Math papers now. Frustrated.

kimmie

Quote

2011-06-26T00:53:00.003+08:00

9955.) You’ve changed so much and I hate who you’ve become. But I still can’t help but cling to the past and hope you’ll change back, because I’m still in love with who you used to be.

This was true. Now no more ;)

kimmie

2 More Days!

2011-06-25T22:45:00.003+08:00

Went to watch Cirque Eloize iD today. It was extremely entertaining. I loved it. After that I went to get my confirmation certificate :) While at church, a girl & a guy approached me they were from G2 choir. They were very nice so now I'm currently contemplating joining G2. If it actually happens it would be my first experience of being in a choir. Wow.

At MBS I saw Shirleen. This is the second time we saw each other randomly. Fate! ♥Mama fish. Talking to Moobies now. Favourite cousin heh! Bias much :P

kimmie

Near the End

2011-06-24T20:50:00.006+08:00

Hello I'm back home. I went to see Joey today. Just like I'd wanted to. Was supposed to study but failed to do so. Kinda expected heheh.

Well about yesterday, to summarize:
First we had a sandcastle competition, then we were hungry so we sent Steph & Van to buy Macs. They rode back in the weird buggy-like double bike. We played cards and washed up while waiting. When they came back, some of us ate and the rest went to play with the bike. After that the food came so we BBQ-ed. We were seriously not bad at starting the fire and cooking :) So after that we tried to cook and we ate at the same time. After eating we played with fire sparklers then we went to cut "cake".

That was a 100 words! Oh and Dorea's mum sent me back after that. Heh. All the pics are on fb but here are the ones I like the most.

Heheh, yep it was awesome :) More pictures on FB.
I hope I can watch Cirque Eloize iD! :D

kimmie

Amila's 16th Birthday BBQ

2011-06-24T12:34:00.006+08:00

You know what? Ytd was damn awesome. Magical in fact. Shall post next time since I gtg run off to Joey's hse now - I really hope she recovers by tmr :(

I think I'm gonna change my background to my photo of the moment. (Mostly scenery)

Just one photo before I go.

I love these guys ♥

kimmie

Change of Skin

2011-06-23T00:45:00.001+08:00

Hay dair.

Wanted to get a new blogskin but it kinda wasted shitloads of time & I really don't know what the hell I'm doing right now. Wasting time. That's what's being done.

Well, it's 12:42am now & I'm still not sleeping. Totally ruined my plans for getting my body clock back to the right timings. Well, at least I'm 50% satisfied with the skin now. Sigh, Mozilla isn't really my cup of tea for blogger but I'm constantly on MF instead of IE nowadays.

Whatever, gotta go catch up on sleep.
Still using IE to post 'cos it's easier to decorate (:

kimmie

Melancholic Mood

2011-06-11T00:01:00.003+08:00

Even though I've been making time for my friends here and there, I still feel lonely. I don't know why. Is it some sickness? A disease perhaps...

I guess, these gaps still present, I have to fill myself because nobody's gonna be there for me forever. Today you both talked to me. I was happy until it ended.

For the first person , I feel like an annoying brat who's only wasting your time with my horrible english.

For the second, I've mixed feelings. I'm so happy that you're talking to me again but you haven't even told me why you were ignoring me before. You just put it behind as though my feelings throughout that whole period did not matter...

Is it even right to feel these feelings? Should I just ignore them because everybody probably faces the same thing? It's not like my feelings would show the slightet significance in this world of never-ending sufferings.

If I ignore them would that make me stronger? What do I do?

Stop thinking so much? I won't say so because I don't think my thoughts are deep at all. Maybe, the answer is to just be positive.

kimmie

Rant Post

2011-06-09T00:12:00.003+08:00

- You know, I hate it because we were once so close. Now it's so weird. Do you even care? I really do wonder if I ever cross your mind at least once, because you've really become a permanent resident in mine.

- Theory 1: When guys fall in love, no other girl matters. I hope someone will prove it wrong.

- I really want to know more about things but I know it'll hurt you so I just shut up.

Shopping @ ION!

2011-06-08T22:20:00.002+08:00

This week so far... has been busy.

On Monday, I went to school to accompany Charlotte to certify her documents as well as print out the picture for the badge. After that I went home and spent the afternoon completing the DSA form and some holiday homework. Then, I went to PP to buy printer ink and some pens. Then home!

On Tuesday, I went to sumbit the DSA form. First, I met Char at PP busstop to get her application envelope. Then, when she came, 48 was right infront of her car and I had to watch it drive away... but it was a good thing in the end. Took 48 then changed to 166 at Little India and arrived at MacRitchie Reservoir. Ahhh~ the memories. Took a walk while waiting for Keefe to bathe. Went to the dam. The place where we once held a conversation... Unlike now. Anyway, we then took bus to coro plaza or whatever to eat lunch. He eats a lot. Treated him for his birthday & gave him the card with the badge. Yep, then we went to HCI to submit the form. He gave me a tour of the High School. Damn big and cool. Yeah wasted loads of time. Then took bus to Marymount then MRT to Dakota then bus to HOME. Then I had Chinese tuition. Practically sleeping already man! Then I slept for one hour then went to watch the current channel 8 nine o'clock show which is not as nice as before.

TODAY, I went to the dentist then shopping. Bought 5 new pieces of clothing. 1 dress, 1 skirt, 2 shirts and 1 cardigan. Yeah, was supposed to fix my phone but didn't bother in the end 'cos the line was so freaking long.

kimmie

Busy Weekend

2011-06-05T09:48:00.007+08:00

So let's quickly post up what I did over these few days before I need to go again :)

On Friday, (It's Friday... Friday... gotta get down on a Friday...) I had structured lessons again. The alarm rang at 6am and I freaking snoozed until 6.50am. Then on to school! We didn't manage to screw up the classroom arrangement. It was kinda expected since all the lessons on Friday were taught by teachers you wouldn't really want to mess with and majority of the classes needed us to change class.

Classes were quite funny. Especially Chem!
Ms. Tong was like: "Girls, are you hungry???
Us: "YESSSSSSS."
Her: "Okay then I'll go get some snacks for y'all."

Then suddenly Felicity says: "Or maybe she's just hungry."
-whole class bursts out laughing- Yep. It may be true.

Then she came back with some mint chocolate biscuits.

Then in Geog, everyone was making a lot of noise.
Mdm Raudah was like: "Girls, it's the last day of school. Don't make war, make love!"
-whole class bursts out laughing- Make love? Hahah wtf.

After that school, I went home with Dorea as usual! Then I went SHOPPING with Amila to 313Somerset. It was super fun. We finally got to meet up again! Hahaha, I met her at Novena to eat first because she had just finished tuition and was hungry. We ate at Long John Silver. Then we went to Somerset. First New Look, then F21, those small shops at Somerset, New Look, then we MRT-ed to Orchard (to Ion) then shopped somemore.

On Saturday, I went to cut my hair and do hair extensions. Uber cool. Also bought my new swimsuit! Yippee. Went to Joey's chalet at night! :)

Today! Went to watch Kung Fu Panda 2 with Justin. It was awesome.

We went to eat at BBQ Chicken (I'm never going to go there again) and bought card materials :) Then I went home then to church then to dinner. Had fish steamboat @ Siglap Centre. Many flies there because of the rain.

Don't really have much time to post. Needa finish some stuff then go to sleep. Doing work with Dorea tmr. Can't wait. Ta ta.

Joey Ang, pls cheer up. You're awesome and I know you won't read this but if you do I hope you smile for me!

kimmie

June Holidays!

2011-06-02T20:11:00.000+08:00

I should really start posting again! I mean, it's the HOLIDAYS after all. Also, I sort of do miss reading what happened in the past and how great my life actually is because normally the good stuff outweighs the bad stuff :)

My holidays haven't been really exciting so far. Still having structured lessons and all. :/ Today I woke up late & skipped the whole of Chinese structured. But who cares? They were watching a cheena show & slacking anyway, just that my house was more comfy to sleep in HEHEHE.

So went to school and just went for Math, recess & SS then went home. Watched 2 hrs of the disappearance of Haruhi Suzimiya. It's damn cool. Then went to sleep again. I feel so pig while writing this. Then I WENT TO RUN (NOT PIG) HAHAHA. Around 5km lah.

Anyway yesterday I went back to trg! Before that I got lost in TMS poly because Joey gives lousy instructions of where to go. I friggin looked like an idiot OTL. Yep then went to row then went to eat dinner. Super awkward dinner with Joey, Han Jie, Dao Wen & Cyrus. One couple and one gay couple LOLOL. Then Cyrus kept having this 'secret' that he don't want to tell, but it's something damn sick la. Zzz. CSA - Cyrus so annoying.

Yep, that's all. Hope tmr me and Hilary can convince others to screw up the classroom arrangement.

kimmie

RESET

2011-05-17T17:47:00.003+08:00

DECIDED TO COME BACK AND POST ON THIS BLOG 'COS THIS BLOG IS THE HAPPIEST OF THEM ALL :D

OMG
Welcome back me! Ok, retarded.

Anyway I know the recipe for highness must include: UPBEAT SONGS. TaTa.

kimmie

Awesome Week

2010-12-24T17:53:00.002+08:00

Woohoo, this is my 301st post? HAHAHA, this wk was quite crazy. It will be one of the most memorable weeks of my 2010 holidays. Monday I went to trg (timing: 1:33:15) then J's hse. Tuesday, almost wanted to go for trg but realized there wasn't any so went to the gym with Joey & Justin instead, then went to watch TRON with Joey, Justin, Jasper and Kelvin @ Tampines. LOL, triple J, double K grp. Tron was soso la. Wednesday went SWIMMING @ Jurong Swimming Complex with the 4 ppl abv + XY, YY, ZY, DJ (lol, all the cheena name ppl). Became chaotah - SUNBURNT!! Haha, Kelvin was the joke of the day: he hung @ the side of the wave pool with half his butt exposed. He didn't even want to let go when the wave went down and everyone saw his white ass. Hahaha. Thursday went for TPJC trg. Ran 4.3 with Collette & Joey. Instead of trg, took K4 out with Kelv, YY & Joey. Kelvin sit front, I sit 2nd, Joey 3rd. YY 4th. Kept playing & capsizing. 250m pontoon was renamed lizard pontoon hahahha alot of things :) Kelvin joke of the day agn: sat in the k4 alone then capsized by himself 'cos no one helped him hold the boat LOL. Aft trg went to Bugis with Justin & Joey. Justin bought 6 donuts and we ate 3! Faaaaat~ Today stayed at home. Yep. Fun week :D Ate noodles the most this wk too!

Merry Christmas Eve Everyone!

Crazy

2010-12-22T21:17:00.004+08:00

I have so many blogs. Maybe I should start posting here again, because this feels like the blog I write on when I go HIGH HAHAHAHA, and I wana always go high. I wana SHOUT TO THE WORLD, HOW GREAT MY LIFE IS AND MAKE THEM FEEL JEALOUS. HOHOHO, but I shouldn't because I love it too much right now. Shit I have sunburn from going to Jurong Swimming Complex today arg, fun though.

'cos when I feel high I feel yellow. HAHA WTF & I feel like I've wasted my holidays. I wanna be myself from now on.

Romeo X Juliet

2010-05-08T18:50:00.005+08:00

I really wanna revamp my blog, I feel like posting but, it's so.. ugly. Just finished watching all the eps of Romeo X Juliet. A story of two star crossed lovers, loosely based on Shakespear's original play. I would say this one is nicer because it's anime version, and the story is different and nice.

A story of two star crossed lovers, Romeo Montague and Juliet Capulet. His father killed her whole family, with she as the sole survivor.

Is this truly a love that can never be?
kimmie

/cont.
I can't believe I didn't post about National Inter Canoeing Comps, not even about Temasek Regatta, or Dragonboat Inter Schs.

Well, my CCA life so far..
A silver for NICC, K1 500m.
C div, 2nd. B div, Overall Champions.
For Temasek Regatta, which is 300m, we got 1st:)
Dragonboat interschs, B div 10men 2nd, B div 20men 1st.

Well just for remembering. Cya.

3 more days

2010-04-02T12:59:00.005+08:00

HAHA, I want to buy @cash now! To change my name & become a new person lolol! Today everyone's supposed to come to my house but my Mum doesn't allow, so I've been playing audi & watching anime since morn. Wonder what their doing now.

Things to do:

change audi name

study

train up my chance again

go brbping if i see any nice den stuff

go find a fam

do homework

ahahaha. BYE!

kimmie

2010-03-21T10:58:00.001+08:00

Sian...

I want my last year Nov~Dec canoeing strokes back
the one I worked so hard for :(

Why has it gone down the drain :(

National Juniors 2010

2010-03-15T11:51:00.004+08:00

Reading last yr's post on National Juniors. Exactly around one year ago, when I broke my Nelo seat. My more childish self who got a silver last year for 500m, demoted to bronze :(

Taken from last year http://strawberrykimmie.blogspot.com/2009_03_01_archive.html

Hi! Omg. Ytd was National Juniors Finals. Did you know that!? Well yeah, my result was kaput. I wasn't prepared to win anyway, and I knew that. What I didn't know was that she would put in so much effort and I didn't know I was leading at the start. Our timings differed by 3 seconds once again, what seemed like forever until I reached the finishing line coming in 2nd. Going to try to work hard, Coach J. said that our timings normally differed by 1sec at Bedok, did you know that!? I didn't! Heck, jiayous for Nationals!! Maybe can get on TV LOL

It's like history repeating itself. Haha, why am I so obsessed. Anyway, for this year, 1000m I got 3rd for B finals, and for 500m, 3rd for B finals. Prize presentation postponed to next week. Got 22 more days to Nationals. What's going to happen?

Cried after the race. First time I did. Kept asking myself, why didn't I sprint properly?! Wtf were you doing when you were racing? Why you never put in all your energy in your last burst? What were you waiting for.

Anyway, when the timings came out I was sad, haha. Haha. Haha. I feel so lonely in a K1. :( Got alot of other emo things but this is it for now. On the brighter side, my timing improved! (Since last year la)

happy holidays everyone!
kimmie

BURN BABY BURN

2010-03-08T17:11:00.003+08:00

No matter how pretty or handsome you may be, if you can't smile, you're ugly.

In my eyes la. Why is it so hard to see a smile on people's face? Just stretch your lips from side to side :)

Ok I propose an idea. We'll sleep during the day and go to school at night. IT'S GETTING TOO HOT HERE!

kimmie

Ricci's and XH's Birthday

2010-03-07T11:30:00.002+08:00

I realize I always start my posts with _____ now. Like sian or whatever. Well I'm super tired right now! Trained from Wed to Sat, 4 days and ytd went out. I wanted to sleep in this morning but have cathechism class. Aiyooo, you know next week is NJCC!? It's like one thing after the next this year, and I'm totally lagging! I tell you, I'm still sleeping in my head now, omg.

Ok let me tell you what happened ytd. Went for trg, early. Like 7.10am. Met with Joey then saw Sylvia while walking in, also saw A and Z, so loving la heh!! Then slacked at the bench there and wrote some motivational stuff on the back of my palm, which is still here today, but more faint. Then jumpingjack warmup then ran 4.3, and achieved my best timing ever of 24.11 mins :) Kept telling myself, just one leg forward the whole way. After that went down for a 500m timetrial. Which was so-so. I hate the first race of the day, esp. if it's a timetrial, so unprepared but competitions gonna be like that so I'll have to get used to it. Then went up for a 15mins break then did sets of 250m, raced down with Dianty, Tracy, Lisa etc. Then finish I think. Quite tiring even though it seems so little...

Then went to bathe, eat lunch & buy presents @ Tampines :) After that headed down to ECP for XH's and Ricci's bday, like everyone go out tgt. Haha funs, made a fail sandcastle and played DDR. ReGINA damn funny sia. Pics on Facebook. Tired and mum is asking me to count money. Super sian, maybe I'll just go and sleep, or study geog or something. Nightnight

Read Xiaohan's blog for more!

kimmie

Sad

2010-03-04T22:14:00.007+08:00

Training today consisted of:
1. Warmup
2. Taking out of boats
3. 1000m race
4. Rest time
and when we're going down again... LIGHTNING ALERT.

ohhh shit.

kimmie

That We Meet in the Middle...

2010-03-02T20:43:00.002+08:00

Down to Earth by Justin Bieber

Been a long time since I thought about things. Don't you hate people who don't smile? They make their lives sad by complicating everything when it's simple. You try to talk to them, asking them to smile and everything but they're just unchangeable forever telling you their sad life story which is the same. I wish you people will realize the joy of smiling and stop being idiots who don't enjoy life.

Down to Earth is so nice, so sad :(

TINY

2010-03-02T19:24:00.003+08:00

Had sch today, is today Tuesday? Yes... it is. School was okay. Suddenly remember about the plastic bottles challenge. Erg, so don't want to do it.

Anyway, went to Science Centre today again, half the class (or most them) learnt Chemistry with Cosmetics and stuff, like making shampoo and toner and what not, and the other half went to the Nanolab to learn how to make a Ferrofluid.

I went to the Nanolab :) and it was cool. Made Ferrofluid, which is a liquid that has magnetic properties (i think) well basically it is attracted to magnets, haha and ours (Ig, Vik and me) was a success. Super funny haha.

Tired now, so sad you know. I thought Shirleen's birthday was tomorrow D: then I wrote in my journal 3rd March then I never wish her in school. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA FISH. (L) you loads :)

teehee, super tired now so going to end post here.

kimmie

Noisy

2010-03-01T15:55:00.001+08:00

Wow, it's been a week since I blogged. Anyway CAs are gone. Hooray! Got my Physics, AMaths, EMaths, MT and Chem back. All I can say is, not bad la. Good try Kimberlyn :)

Haha, so about last week. Monday studied, Tuesday studied too, Wednesday went for TPJC trg to surprise my dear bra :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Bought a cake and went to BR, so sad, wanted to buy helium balloons too :( but nvm, haha smashed cake in her face, didn't eat it though, was it nice? From Bengawan Solo (sp?) Then went to Parkway after that with family instead of having Chinese tuition even though Chinese CA is on the next day, but who cares.

Thursday, finished CA! Yayayay, went for training which was quite boring then went out to eat. Friday also went for TPJC training then went for dinner too. Saturday erm, went for training then went for lunch then watch Valentine's Day. All of this is with Jus laaaa :D Valentine's Day was quite nice :)

Then Sunday went to Grandma's (father's side) awhile then came home slack, was damn bored, kept watching youtube vids, then went to eat dinner at HAMSA, an Indian restaurant near Katong Mall. Not bad, but I prefer Chat Masala (the one outside my house), HAMSA was spicyyy. Wanted to eat Waraku though (Jap restaurant).

Haha, so today, I had 2.4km! Tiring. My timing improved since last year, by about a minute! Yay, now I'm 11.41mins. 36 seconds to cut down before I reach Christine's timing. Damn, 4 and a half more pullups to Christines peak. Ah damn, yes I can only do half a pullup (means I jump then pullup) LOL.

Now I'm gonna try to study even though the noise is going to make my head go nuts.

Things to do:
1) Class Tee
2) Homework
3) Find the KC suggestion thing
4) Remember what I needed to do...
5) Physics Homework
6) Geography Homework
7) Math Homework
8) Sign the consent form shit
9) Zuo Ye
10) Learn Eng vocab for test
11) Buy Shirleen's, Ricci's & Xiaohan's prez
12) Think of what to buy for them...
and the list goes on...

kimmie

FMyLife.com

2010-02-22T20:45:00.003+08:00

Ahah! Supposed to be studying now but reading FML.

Today, a drunk man opened the unlocked door to my house thinking it was his house. He tried to attack me because he thought I was a burglar. FML

this is the best so far. HAHA

Amaths & Lit tomorrow, so screwed!

kimmie

Other funny:

Today, I was at a club with my friends and my friend got really drunk. Later on he came up to me and said he really needed to pee but he was too drunk to work the zipper, and asked if I could help. When I finally unzipped him, he was so desperate to go he pissed in my face. FML

Mad High The Windows Break

2010-02-21T17:02:00.003+08:00

Freaking out now.

It's like this feeling you get when you know you have a chance, but you don't know how to use it! You know what? I just realized why guys are faster than girls in canoeing. 'Coz they are fitter. Omg, I'm damn stupid lah =.=

ok !@#(*&^%$#@ need to find training partner who won't make me feel
1. Like I'm slowing him/her down.
2. Kanchionq!
3. Competitive with him/her.

but of course going to be a her lah, 'cos yeah, I'm les. Ok talking crap byebyebye!

kimmie

Too Slow

2010-02-20T21:32:00.003+08:00

Haha. Super sian right now. Training today 3 timetrials of 500m I think, all the timings sucked :( Always see K4 rowing down so bloody fast and everyone else too D: Been thinking: Why won't my boat go fast!? Then try this and that then still cannot to make it go fast. After that spammed 250m timetrials, motivated myself by saying if you do 20 sets, you'll get an ice cream. I did around 10, but got it anyway :)

Whaaatever, I'm a loooser. Super sian.

But can I do it?

I still have this feeling that even though I push myself it won't be enough, why? Why, why do I care. What the hell's the purpose. Insane.

kimmie

Nts

2010-02-18T20:16:00.005+08:00

Today sucks shit. School was okay, but very sian, training was !@#$%^ Training:
Felt like...

Why?
1. No one to race with, 'cept K4 (super fast) & Tracy. You guys rock.
2. Feel very unsupported. ('cept for c, j & j) who are very supportive~ And some others.
3. Someone sees me struggling (cos damn tired) & doesn't help person: M_ /_u_ai_y. -'-

Felt good
1. Managed to save K4
omg, that's it.

Fuck man. Why the fuck am I trying so hard? Wasting my time, study time - bye.

kimmie

Tiring Day

2010-02-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

School today, couldn't wake up. Geography lesson, like wth was going on, rip currents longshore current(?), then Maths, disaster! My quiz was totally screwed up but heck. Recess - drank Milo! Physics, FUN. Like learn alot of useful stuff, it makes me totally understand the world better. Literature was weird, I'm lagging in class. SS was normal, scared for CA, because it's the first. How am I to write out a full essay!? Crazy!

Went for extra training. Came early. There were super alot of J1s! Warmed up with them, paiseh :( so extra. Trained harder today, but not to my max, I don't know what is my max. Did race sets, 750m, 600m, 450m, 300m, 150m, break, 3 250 sprints I think. Two things I regretted today:
1. Not saving this SAJC guy who capsized very far away. I offered, but he declined. I should have just insisted, cos when I rowed up after a race set of about 450m, he was still swimming.
2. Being pekcek, and not wearing my slippers. There was a squirrel's tail near the boat covers, wtf? Couldn't find my Nelo cover and just let my anger get lose.

* Need to up strength desperately! Gym maybe? Whatever, but it's 23 more days I guess, time to just give in my all.

I'm focusing so much on canoeing. I feel that when I train with TPJC I'm pushed more. I need to be able to push myself from now on. Anyway, studies! CAs on Friday. I'm going to study Physics now, just finished Chinese Tuition and Dinner.

Lastly, thanks so much Coach! He so nice you know, let us come down and row, when he have so many J1 to take care of, not even our training, he even let's us take any boat we want (but must ask him first - he very flexi) Yayayayay okay go study Physics now, bye!

kimmie

Wednesdays with P

2010-02-15T10:23:00.003+08:00

I think I'm done doing up my blogskin, maybe a few changes and addition to my affiliation list. Extremely lazy to do homework. I need to start soon, I'll give myself 10 mins to post, and clear up. Okay anyway 25 days to NJCC, holy shit. Joey is currently losing money, haha who ask her gamble. Lucky never go her hse, sure lose $$. Haha, every Wednesday we always spend together.

Forgot to mention that the week before last week, (Wednesday) we snuck into TPJC but fail la, supposed to say we J1 then donno why the security there then we make up other lies and get it -.- Thought the school was super big... like will really get lost those type but it's not, sad. Look around then studied there then went home. Hmm, haha it was their CCA Fair and we saw coach. Alot of CCAs also gave us their flyers hahahaha okay.

Then this week we baked, lol quite fail, but pass manz, first time baking cookies (for v.day) then super alot of SUGARRR! We used super tiring methods to make the cookies when we could've just used simple, no strength methods. Haha, for each person we were supposed to give one man bear (blue) and one woman bear (pink) but the blue icing ran out lol. Haha so fun, but tiring.

This week thinking of going training/studying. NJCC is in 25 days, CAs is in... 4 days shit, I just realized, okay 10 mins going to be over, bye!

kimmie

CNY + V.Day

2010-02-14T16:38:00.006+08:00

First time blogging in a month, haha damn bored now. CNY has become super boring :( Parent's are getting super suspicious about me being attached, scary. Keep asking me weirdo questions lol? Maybe I should just make it clear to them -.-

Whatever, totally miss training now. After re-gaining abit of motivation. Question now is: how to gain more power? I am a weakling... so gym? oh yes, pushup!@#$%$#@ noooo... Super scared of NJCC, I think I'll seriously lose damn paiseh :( against jcs... just imagining is scary T.T but still have to try hard.

so what happened in the past month:
Canoe Marathon :) Came in 4th place, about 2m away from 3rd. Lost to 3 jcs :( but overall our timing improved and it really was a great experience.

A month of being class chair... wow sucks! Stressful and hectic (but still okay lah). Need to pia class tee already.

Getting Oakley specs! and they're super cool dark shades, oh yeah. Mrs. Lingesh said we must get, so I just got them haha, "You are not acting cool, you're just protecting your eyes." They way she says water is damn funny, vaathe?

Excursion to CHIJMES and Body World... so fun haha Body World is quite scary 'cos it's real humans and I don't dare to walk around alone. It reminds me of hollowman, when he's dissappearing/turning back and his muscles show first... scary. CHIJMES is fun, can take alot of pics and walk around with friends :)

Tuvalu activity. The country we are getting for YOG is Tuvalu, it's like near Australia/ Papau New Guinnea (sp?) The islands there have sort of 'a hole' in a middle, with water/sea. Cool, it's not those high tech, Japan country. It's like those beachy Hawaii country.

The most recent is the CNY celebration. Kids from Holy Family Kindergarten came to our class, I just realized today that I'm from there too! Haha. Vik and me buddied this really cute and hyper kid called Ryan! :D haha. He's super hyper and damn cute, shy at first too. He gave me a hug and kiss goodbye. Haha, maybe I'll go visit him sometime :) I told him to join canoeing haha.

Watched another movie too, just ytd! Percy Jackson and The Lightning Theif. It's nice, the plot is cool, but quite draggy and there isn't really a climax I would say. Interesting though, but could be better...

Okay I think I blog alot already :)

Wishing Everyone a

Happy Chinese New Year and Valentines Day!

kimmie

Confusing Shit

2010-01-10T17:19:00.004+08:00

Okay whatever, so I can't blog 365 days this year, maybe once a week at least? Haha, better don't say later can't blog. Blogging 'cos Xiaohan asked me to and Jac said no time. I HAVE TIME!

Anyway, this week has been very hectic, ring file here, donno what book there, cca fair, what teacher... so on. First week of school sucks, with keytag here, collecting this there, coming to sch and opening the door somewhere inside too, yes I'm honoured to have been sabo-ed as chairperson (sarcasm? I don't know) Haha, but it's cool though, chairperson of 306, WOW. Okay shall stop ranting. Vik got Vice Chair 2 again HAHA. We were planning to nominate each other as treasurers though. That was on Monday or Tuesday... I forgot.

On Tuesday we went for mass, it's the 80th year anniversary for KC I think, haha. After sch had CCA. On Wed, had sch then went out with Mum to get camping stuff. On Thurs, had sch then CCA. Then on Fri had sch then made the ODAC banner for CCA fair (ytd). Then ytd had CCA fair and trg la.

Lazy blog le, need learn ting xie. Bloody hell, but ohya, ytd was damn fun rowing, but pekcek la. Keep saying fuck fuck fuck. HAHA stress relief :D

I'm damn confused now, fuck :( I miss K1, so untroublesome. Now push me here and there + my stroke become like shit, then so demoralised at how much I deproved... Arg, Joey I want K2 with you! (HAHA SO FUN)

kimmie

x2 Chipmunks!

2010-01-02T22:49:00.005+08:00

Wondering if I can blog all 365 days of this year! Hahah, stupid thought. Anyway, just ate dinner (pizza), goddamn, it's 15 days to canoe marathon and I'm still eating fast food. Someone kill me(I am just joking).

Gahs, ok -let's cont with today's story. In the morn had trg as usual, had to do 10 rounds of 2.4km with Joey in Snow White K2, which is supposedly 22km? Goddamn shitty I swear... Felt damn sucky :( Patient ~ Sad ~ Angry ~ Pissed ~ Forget it.

Then aft trg went out with Jus to celebrate my bday lah. His present damn nice and thoughtful :) Really miss going out with Jolene, Charlotte, Collette, Dianty, Tracy and Khali for lunch tho. KFC for lunch then went to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks, haha! My second time watching, even more funny! Then aft that didn't have much time left so went to ICC, Ice Cream♥

Wish we can do this more often, so fun! Haha, this is my last hour of being 14. Sucks, 15 is so old already! Like one year before sec 4 (which I label as super old) and one year after sec 2 (which is like, quite young la). I think I'm having a middle-aged crisis thing during my teenage life. Wow that sounded so girly and 'mature'. HECK NAH, haha talking crap.

Oks, going to spend my last hour bathing/rotting/msning/breathing/listening to the Chipmunks!

Tata!

kimmie

Day 1 of 2010.

2010-01-01T21:04:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year Everyone!

Haha! 2010 is here.

2009 passed by so goddamn fast, no shit man! Wahaha, looking forward to YOG and an awesome year.

16 days to canoe marathon. What to do? I'm freaking confused about what I want right now. Not even in good shape!

Even worse, 2 days to SCHOOL. Fag, 72hrs to complete hw. Screw you hw!

Arg. Feel bloody vulgar now, better shut my mouth before something slips out- ttyl!

kimmie

One day to US!

2009-12-01T10:25:00.006+08:00

What day is it today? Oh ya, Tuesday. I have tuition in awhile, ohno.

Ytd had trg, which was as per normal, except that someone molested my leg! The experience is very creepy. Yer! Okay, change topic.

I somewhat miss rowing in K1, seeing someone use the boat I love, and exceling in it, is very agitating. However, all my thoughts and goals are now set on K2, with Joey!

I didn't reach my 22km goal! We were at about 21km, and then we had to packup, dammit. No chucky yesterday, maybe because there wasn't enough, haahaa. Plus, one more was lost. Heehee.

After trg, went to bathe *eeks* and go eat lunch then go Jus' house, then home.

Yayayay, later going to try out new k4, excitedddddd :)

Yayness!

2009-11-29T17:36:00.003+08:00

Haven't blogged in a whole week, sorry about that!

While I was MIA, ~~few~~many things happened.

First, I was sick, from last Friday till Thurs. Like one whole week? Then the stupid throat infection cleared. Which is quite odd because I normally recover extremely fast. It was really torture having the throat infection, like really really.

On Monday, wanted to go swaveboarding, but couldn't, so in the end, went to PP only.

Then on Tues, showed up for trg, but couldn't do anything but help them, because was still sick, after that... I went home... Yeah.

On Wed... I had to go make my passport, so we went to get the ticket no. first, then go for lunch, then come back, then go send my sis for her Dyslexia test. After that, went back home.

Thurs... eTrg...

Friday went swaveboarding at ECP, it was cool! Rain sucks though.

Swaveboarding's so fun, I went on Sat too. After eTrg and picking up my sis.

Woohoo! I'm going USA next Wed. Los Angeles, here I come! Then Japan!

kimmie

So You Think You Can Dance.

2009-11-22T16:54:00.004+08:00

Ashleigh and Jakob's first routine together.

Second.

Third.

and the Fourth is the Hip Hop one, the first video on the previous post. Don't you just love them. Haha, they're nice to watch :)

kimmie

What Did She Say.

2009-11-21T18:45:00.003+08:00

Very Nice.

Other nice ones, but quite some time back:

my fav.

The guy have no 6 pack, so it's totally minus one point for his appearance. He had nothing to show, yet the girl still unbuttons his shirt... -_-

2:25, damn funny!

kimmie

1 Week Flew By.

2009-11-20T09:46:00.006+08:00

Everyone's @ trg right now :( and I'm sick at home. I missed trg ytd too to go to the Health Conference Mr. Lee askedm the Health Ambassadors to go to. It was super funny.

Okay, so ytd, met Yi Hui and Hilary at my hse in the morning and we took a cab to Republic Poly, it cost $35? Haha, but my mother paid for it because she was supposed to send us originally :) Parents went for bro's graduation haha. We got in the taxi and the taxi driver was like, you all schooling there ar? How old are you? We told him we're sec 2 and we got into RP through direct admission, and he believed. In the taxi, Hilary got nothing better to do but to video video, then Yi Hui very quiet, sms sms.

When we finally got to the big big campus, we just followed the crowd, and somehow found our way to W4, Augora Hall 2? 4? Forgot. We registered, then went in and sat down like right infront, with 3 other students from diff schs.

Then they briefed us on the programme, then we had a talk? Then brkfast? Then another talk and walking around? Then idk lah. Then had to fill in some lucky draw crossword also to win a Wii for our sch, we weren't lucky enough, sorry. Then walked around, twice, played with stuff - swaveboard, skateboard? Can't rmbr what else.

Okkkk, then finish, then went to this cool game room. With like a Wii, and 2 walls which we can HIT, and this I forgot what, but it had a belt with a sensor. Haha, then we played inside that room, very fun. Then dk do what... go back and make some vehicle. Our facilitator damn funny. My whole grp was like doing nonsense all through the last segment? Hahahaha. Our vehicle had a triumph advertisement in the front with Osama Bin Ladin (sp?) at the back ok idk who. Blablabla. Then finish liao, took pics, ate Subway and went home by MRT. Totally long ride from Woodlands to Bedok during rush hour. Haha then went home then had an intresting phonecall then had fever then went to sleep.

Lol, just totally crammed everything up there haha!

On Wednesday, went to buy bks and eTr. Stupid rain.

On Tuesday, went to watch 2012, and eat Mango Ice!

On Monday, had trg then went to ECP to cycle with Jia Li, Rachel, Felicia, Dorea, Stephenie, Vik and Amila. Ate lunch @ Macs, and went for DDR, because it rained. Then went to cycle. After cycling, went back to play DDR. I fell down while cycling, luckily I fell on grass :) Then went home with Dorea.

Yep, that's it for the week. No pics, 'coz I'm lazy :)

Angels come down to help people, they appear in human forms, am I lucky enough to have seen one before?

I wonder who is my guardian angel.

kimmie

Happy.

2009-11-15T20:23:00.005+08:00

Playing Happy Aquarium now. Keefe intro to me. My fish is damn cute! Its name is happy.

Dedicated to Shirleen, my Mama fish :)

Today, I went to Parkway Parade with Mum, Bro and Sis. That's about it :) You know, we came back with a box full of Harry Potter books, the whole set. However, we could not find the Angels and Demons book I wanted because that cover design was sold out in both Borders and Popular. Well, I'm going to get it soon!

kimmie

Big Big Waves.

2009-11-15T10:04:00.003+08:00

Woohoo! Ytd Joey and I hit our 21km goal, without capsizing. Then we sprinted back and capsized. Cooooolz! Time to aim for 22km, maybe even 24? (3 sets)

We did sets of 8km ytd, same drill - Joey and me in Snow White K2. We became tired quite fast, and by the starting of the 3rd set, I was already sleepy. The waves ytd were humongous, and so many people in Bedok Reservoir too -_- Quite fun la :)

After trg went to Bedok Inter and Mum picked me up, then went home to bathe, change then go to town. First Mum, bro and I went to Robinsons to get my sis' thermal underwear and clothes for states trip. Then walked to Orchard Central and went to look for shoes for me. We went into Dr. Martins then Converse. Timothy(bro) was facinated by the long escalators so we rode on it -.- After looking around, we went to Robinsons to get the car, and drove to Wisma Atria.

When we were in Robinsons, Mum thought I had nabbed her cigerettes and put them in the car, but I didn't, they were actually in her bag. After finding out that I tricked her she kept saying I was annoying etc. Lol.

At Wisma Atria, we went to Aldo, then to Nine West, then back to Aldo where we finally got a pair of boots for me. Then after that we got some drinks and went home. I drank Milo Dinosaur!! Yay.

Weird Post.

2009-11-13T19:57:00.004+08:00

Apparently today's adventure will be kept secret, because I'm far too lazy to explain to people about myself and why this, why that.

Today I realize how common two-faced people are. Are there really many people I can trust in my circle of "friends"?

Thinking would be unneccessary because it is not good to doubt the friendships I have between many people, it's just not what a friend would do. I'll try to halt all thoughts on this, starting - now.

Bye! I'm so looking forward to tomorrow, 21km, here we come!

20km!

2009-11-09T20:31:00.006+08:00

Guess what. Guess what. Guess what!

Yes baby, 20km. Shaaazam.

Went for training today. Coach had invigilation in sch for sick students, so a new Coach came, Mr. Teo. One things for sure, he's freaking fast. Well anyway, we had to row up to the 1000m mark, 8km then rest. We went for the first 8km, then rested, then the next, drank water and went again (didn't rest) and then completed 20km!

Raced 200m with Mr. Teo once, and he won us 40m? Wow~ Raced with K4 and Mr. Teo for 500m, the last 500m then we reach 20km. Obviously, we lost, but we did not give up oks! Our balanced has seriously improved and my Father's sunglasses really helped. I can focus better while wearing them lol, but I was still called Salted Fish's wife. Ewww :(

After trg Jolene pulled me to lunch with Collette, Charlotte, Khali and Dianty, haha and she gave me two cute pens from Korea too. Thanks niece! We went to eat at Century Square foodcourt. After finding seats and buying food, I went to buy drinks for everyone then came back and Jolene spilled the Dianty's Bandung LOL. Then her shoebag and my Iphone smell like Bandung, her leg also. Haha!

After eating, played Tai Ti, then stopped and went to T1 roof or smth and played there instead. The flowers there were singing gay music and Charlotte was dancing to it. Played Black Jack and Tai Ti? Yeah... Keep losing and being the WC.

Finished playing and took 31 home with Dianty, Khali and Charlotte. It started to rain and I walked home in the rain haha.

Didn't go to Orchard to watch movie with best friends today, sad. Hope we can go some other day instead :)

kimmie

Bubblegum

2009-11-08T19:22:00.008+08:00

Angels and Demons, yes I'm reading that now. After being motivated by Joey's English assignment. I suddenly found the book in my house and decided to read it. How convenient. next, I'm going to try to read The Da Vinci Code/my mother's Twilight series.

I finished reading the story for my English holiday homework already. Woohoo! It was not as boring as I thought :)

My ears are currently pain from talking/listening on the phone for 2 hours straight.

Anyway, today went for the last Cathechism class, then for lunch @ PP - Sakae Sushi, prefer Waraku much more though! Then went home and slacked. Nothing much.

Dad lent me his Golfs sunglasses, going to use them for training tomorrow. Hope they are useful, and hopefully I don't lose them or look retarded.

Can you see the bubblegum? Catch her police.

kimmie

Late!

2009-11-07T17:29:00.004+08:00

Saturday, 6 days into the holidays. Had training as usual, however today I overslept and woke up at 9. I'm supposed to reach there by 7.30, great. Woke up, saw the time, and immediately called Coach to apologize. After that, got ready and rushed to Bedok Reservoir. Reached there at 9.45, and was late by 2 hr +. Great, first time late. Sorry Joey!

Rushed in, and did warmup, then went down in K2 with Joey! With Coach's sunglasses. Yay! We told him about the splashing problem, that I always get smacked in the face by water (because of Joey), therefore, our co-ordination is off (he said I couldn't co-ordinate well). The sunglasses were nice, really! Then I don't want to give it to someone else. Haha, well, it seriously did save me from all of Joey's splashing. Cool right!

Ok, so train train train, our butt like not even like that haha! Amazingly, we did not cap! Woohoo? What an achievement :P

After trg went to eat lunch and return library books with Justin. Then took a bus, home.

Okay, then yesterday, I went to watch My Sister's Keeper! Which is, damn scary, for me. I'm a scaredy cat okay...Watched it at Tampines GV with Shirleen (my master!) and Vanessa :P

First, met Joey at my busstop, then went to eat lunch tgt @ Tampines. Then aft that met Shirleen and Vanessa. Bought popcorn and everything, then went in the cinema. The drink was this cute Astro Boy cup! Haha. Joey didn't come watch with us because she watched the movie already.

Okay, so after the movie we went to VivoCity, first shop - Forever21. Conclusion, they like to shop, ohno. Then went to the store opposite, that I forgot the name of... Oops. Then to Zara and all ~ Had fun looking at all the clothes :) After that went to camwhore? In the middle of nowhere, then went to the open space to continue camwhoring? Vanessa lah! Say camwhore then kanchionq alr~ Haha. Then after that go arcade, but they not the type who go arcade, so didn't play much. After that got some stuff to eat then trained to Bedok and took 197. Played truth or dare the whole time, using Iphone. Quite fun lahs, but they so kaypoh. Hehe.

Fish! Vanessa never do because she's a carrot!

Pretending to be taller than me, but fail.

Ohya, I've also recently been enjoying my time on AuditionSEA private server! Can buy so many clothes. Cool sia!

kimmie

I love my streaming results!

2009-11-05T09:20:00.004+08:00

YAY!

After mugging my ass off and everything for EOY. I really got what I wanted, like really. Even this bonus, which is also what I want! I'm damn happy.

I'm in the same class as Victoria! Yay :) & Claire.

Maybe my dream of sitting with her will finally come true? Idk, we're taking the same subs, but she's taking an extra.

Well. At least there's something to look forward to next year. However I'm very sad that I'll still be seperated with some close friends :(

Nvm, there's at least 2 of us in every class we're in. Meetups, during hols ok!

I'm so going to miss the rest though - - STOP. Will not brag about this, because it's not like we're seperated forever.

kimmie

Wasting Time.

2009-11-04T10:50:00.003+08:00

Hello 3rd Day of Holidays. Today, I get to re-experience the feeling of slacking at home and having nothing to do. Haven't had this feeling for a long time. Then again, I still get the urge to pick up a book, or do something, which is productive, so that I can improve, or gain a new skill. Wonder when did I start become like this, is this good, or bad?

I don't know.

Few options would be to:
1) Continue doing my English holiday homework.
2) Start reading the dictionary, because I think my English is very limited.
3) Learn the ChengYu for Chinese holiday homework.
4) Observe ~~old people~~ the elderly for CIP.

Okay! Suddenly it seems that I have alot of things to complete. Oh ya, I also must print out results slip. Haha, now I really can't slack around.

kimmie

K2 Surprise.

2009-11-03T21:16:00.003+08:00

Today woke up and sent sis to doc, coz she was sick. Poor Kylie...

Then Jus came my house and we went training together. Then training! Took K2 with Joey. It was fun, rowed 10km.

Then chionq home, and now play comp :B

I love Shirleen Lim!

go here: http://www.footprints-inmyheart.blogspot.com/

kimmie

Rain, Rain, Go Away.

2009-11-02T20:06:00.003+08:00

Haha, today after doing all those stuffs, I have finally made my new EZ Link card! Happy! Haha, went to Pasir Ris to do that and met daddy there. Sat down and had a chat with him for awhile :) then went home, he and his nonsense, he was so high and gay just now lah. Haha!

Sian, didn't run today because the rain made it so slippery and puddley :( Tomorrow also have training. Then I'll have to stone and paddle again.

First Day of Holidays.

2009-11-02T08:34:00.007+08:00

Omg, just thinking about how my niece is in Korea right now. Then like remember about the BBQ, like don't know how many days ago. I totally forgot to upload the pics lah, so bad of me. Heh, but now like very late to upload, so don't know whether to upload anot. Got damn fed up after the Charlotte and Collette bicycle vid took freaking long to upload, so didn't upload anything. LOL, anyway.

Today woke up early. Then after this need to go to sch then to library then to PP then to take photos, for my lost EZ Link card. Stupid!

Damn shit, I just realized how much I wanted to get into 306, that's why I worked hard for EOYs, to work hard and take triple science, but then in the end I opted for double science. However, I think it's the right choice for me, idk? I just find it very stupid.

Sian, holidays coming. Training. Running. Homework. Going out? :)

Here are some pics to make my blog more colourful LOL.

I MISS THIS.

this person to play with me.

these bestf. in real life & in audi :)

this family, with many others also not in this pic.

and not forgetting ~Random~ too.

kimmie

Halloween.

2009-10-31T21:50:00.010+08:00

There are no pictures at my blog! This could be because I am now using an iPhone. Damns, but I still can get other pics right?

Anyway, had ODAC in the morning today. Did 2 sets of 10km. Extremely pekcek after I capped and the boat became red. Disgustinggg, but this made me even more determined to finish my laps. LOL. Then row row row row row, break 10 mins then go for second set. Then finish 10 mins before packup, so packuped first :( Coach said to try to do more, dammit.

After that came home, bathed, ate abit, and went to pick sis. Then came home and friends came over. Tried to watch Race to Witch Mountain, but pizza came and all that. Quite boring, I'm so sueing the organiser, MaoMao! so sad Amila couldn't make it.

Haha we played so called Marco Polo in my tiny room. Damn fun. Sis kept interrupting -.- zzz. Everyone like like her more, then Jie Yun said: Don't worry Kimberlyn, I love you as much as your sis or smth lidat :( Wahlao

Oks nvm, we had abit of fun anw! :D

Then then then, what happened on Friday ah? Ohya, went to ICC. Yummm. Friday had Class Party and received results slip! It was the last day of school and the last day in the same class as Vik :(

Thank you for everything Victoria. Although my wish of sitting with you never
came true in the end, I thank God that we're at least in the same class :) Thank
you for being such a great friend. You really mean alot to me as my best friend
in class. Although you don't like to go out and find it lecheh, and our
interests are not the same, we still can laugh like idiots, at the silliest
things. Haha, hope we will stay this close, always.

kimmie

Zzz...

2009-10-27T09:49:00.002+08:00

Sian, in school now during some movie period and everyone is like watching the Hindi movie while I'm mysteriously using the comp at the back of the classroom =.="" okok, bye!! Later got CCA yay??!

kimmie

Time to Start Running.

2009-10-26T21:35:00.002+08:00

Today, went to school. Quite boring. I'm really not sure whether I should take bio because I like it. I also don't know whether to take triple science because CCA is more impt. However, I guess I'll stick to the Physics decision, besides, I got alot of help :D

I got back my Literature marks today, and it sucks. Deproved by alot. Okay, shall stop here.

Our class cont to watch the Hindi show agn. Haha! And someone, I think Ng Ying or Arica, called me Ishaan, the depressed boy from the vid. Wth. Nothing to dooooo in class, so practised writing with leftie agn :) I'm getting better. Oh! Doodled alot on the board too... Hahahahaha! Vik and me drew some shit... which was like this person, throw a rock at a flying penguin, who shitted and the shit fell down, on i-forgot-what. A tree? Then got this other person, saw a pot of gold coming from a rainbow. He ran for it, then we draw one rock infront of him, so he will trip :) Then the pot of gold will disappear! Wahahahaha. Then got this plane want to hit the angel, in the sky, but Vik drew a flying penguin beside the angel, so I guess the plane will hit the penguin instead... Hahaha!

Ok wtv, aft. school went to find Ms. S Tan and ask her abt Science stuff. However I'm still quite unsure. Sian, then Amila, Dorea and me went to the library. It was my idea, but in the end I didn't borrow any books. We saw Dorea's sis and her friend, which is also a YF from Holy Fam. Small world man, his name is Russel. The one I remembered as brussel sprout... Nvm. He told me his name start with R, then I guess correctly, so Dorea owes us 2 bucks each 'coz he guessed my name correctly too. Haha. Dorea, READ THIS.

Then blablabla (lazy to blog) went to run aft I came back, from St. Pats to Bedok Reservoir, saw many many things, and ran to places I didn't know, with help from the signs and maps along the way of course. Not a stressful run, just an easy around 6~7km jog :) In around an hour? Haha slow and easy... Then came home and bathe.

Bye! Remind me to sign the form!

kimmie

Freaking Out Over Streaming.

2009-10-25T13:33:00.004+08:00

Bio or Physics?

Totally freaking out now!

What if we don't get into the same class.
What if we drift?
What. What. What.
What if you all get new best friends :(
What if I don't make the right choiceee?

Okay, there's nothing to be freaking out about. There's an answer to this. There's always an answer for almost everything, and it is - - - Physics.

Ah wtv. Don't stress Kimberlyn, as you tell people, don't worry about what has not happened. so, topic, over.

Anyway, ytd was so fun! Hahahahahaha. Time to do something productive, not that blogging isn't. Bye!

kimmie

Remembering Bali.

2009-10-24T11:09:00.003+08:00

Sian, I know I wanna blog many things, but like no time. Okay, faster skim thru the Bali trip thing :B Then I don't need to blog about it already. Hyeh Hyeh Hyeh Hyeh... (Don't know how to spell the retarded evil laughter...) LOL :)

So. Er. Er... What happened ah? Ok, on Friday, Mummy, Timothy (idiotic brother), Ryan (younger cousin), Mama (my grandma!) and me went to the airport by cab with Daddy. Daddy took the cab to his office, veryvery far away aft we dropped off at the airport. Then blablabla got into plane, Garuda one. Means, don't have the screen to play with :( So, decided to sleep. After like 2hr or less, reached Jakarta (we were transfering). Then walk around the airport arnd 2hrs then go on the plane to Bali. Reach liao then blablabla we saw this guy, who also our tour guide and stuff, and he sent us to the hotel, Aston Bali. Aft reaching there and checking in and everything, we slacked in the room awhile and then went out to eat at a nearby restaurant called i-forgot-what. Then went back and sleep. During dinner we found out that there was an earthquake around Jakarta area right after we left. Wow. Hope those people there are okay. :/

Then on Saturday! We went on a tour. First to this place where we could see some traditional dancing and acting :) The Warung, the God of Siva, some of these charas. Very unique and new to me. (Sorry if I spelt some of the charas wrong!) Then aft that went to a Batik factory I think. Then bought some Batik stuff~ Aft that went to this restaurant which can see Volcano, like veryvery far away. 2hr drive. I was being me of course, sleeping in the car like some pig. *oinks. Then blablabla eat eat eat, take pics with the volcano then go off, to some plantation thing which had, shit coffee. Super funny lah. This mongoose animal, will eat the coffee bean, because the skin of the coffee bean is digestable but the bean itself is not, the bean will be shitted out. The skin of the coffee bean is the bitter part, so the bean tastes nice right? Then the bean is washed and cleared of shit, fried... like roasted into golden brown colour, then pounded into coffee. It tastes really nice! but, I didn't try it lol. It's super ex also! Haha, the cocoa powder there very nice :) Aft this I forgot where we went le, think we went to some place, then can buy stuff there. I chose to buy this really cool bat kite! So can play :) Stupid Timothy go copy me and bought this red eagle kite -.-. Then aft that went back to the hotel and ate buffet dinner there. Very nice :) Seafood seafood. My mum kept disturbing the frenchies when she taking stuff at the buffet table =x annoyinggggg. Hehe. Aft that eat, go back and SLEEP :)

Then on Sunday sunday sunday! In the morning, went sea sports! Which was super fun. Tried parasailing, like finally. It's super nice to be in the sky, with this nice breeze, and this nice view. Shiok :) Don't have the feeling like your falling. That scary scary feeling, no don't have. Have this feeling you're just like, I don't know how to say, but not scary at all. After parasailing, went to play Flying Fish! After begging my brother to play with me so long. My mother and brother both donwan. Brother being scaredy shit lah. I would have gone alone but it was for two person. :/ Then, finally persuaded him and we went lah. Extremely fun, seriously. Like it will fly and you have to lie down. Then when it fly, the float that you are lying down on will become upright, so it's like you're standing lidat, then you can see like the water quite far below you. Fun fun fun. Not common also because this is the first time I was offered to play this! At time the flying fish will be flat on the water instead of flying, so can ride it like a banana boat. :P Yay. Aft seasporting, I did a spray art tattoo (spider shaped on my back) and then we went back to the hotel to swim. After that we went to Kuta area to eat and shop!!! Cool. Alot of nice shirt and stuff there, all the sporty brands. Roxy, Quiksilver, Billabong, Volcom, RipCurl, Rusty. Cool sia, but didn't get to go to the last two, because no time. Aft shopping went to Hard Rock Cafe to eat. Then went home, sleep :)

Then, the last day, Monday. That morning we were almost scammed by this Time Share company. If you go on holiday then some unknown shit person call you and tell you that you fill in this form and you won something big, then ask you go their place and collect and stuff, DON'T GO. You'll so regret! They'll hypnotize you or something then you won't know what you have signed = you losing alot of money. Lucky, my mother is those skeptical sort, and she went to the reception to check about this hotel they asked us to go to. The hotel staff then told us about alot of these calls and what happens to the people who go there and stuff. We then ignored their invite to go there and asked the hotel staff to block all the calls going to our room. Haha, we had breakfast at the hotel, which we normally have. (Same place for all three days, quite nice there. Normal, buffet breakfast.) Then aft that my brother and cousin went to swim. Then we packup and left for airport :) Finally, we flew back to SG. Yay.

End post on Bali :) Now I gtg bathe and get ready for later. Byebye!

Back to Training!

2009-10-22T19:57:00.002+08:00

Feel extremely sad and tired aft trg. :( Sick now... with the flu and feeling down... School was okay. Got back Maths and English :) Maths was okay... English was suck... Scary because English and Maths are double weightage and I didn't do so well for English. For Maths, had many careless mistakes, but overall quite satisfied. Today, we had many reading periods, in which our class was watched over by Mrs PT. She let us watch this Hindi movie which was quite nice haha!!!

Will cont blogging tomorrow. Sorry... Needa go get some rest. Cya.

BBQ.

2009-10-21T08:34:00.006+08:00

In school now, IT period. Everyone is allowed to use comps and almost all of my classmates are on Facebook :) I'm back from Bali and will update on it later on, need to see whether I can get my hands on those pics we took :P.

Yesterday was Jolene's and Charlotte's birthday BBQ. Which turned out okay. Much less people then expected though. S giving so many probs, actually both ways because we're giving probs to him too... lol.

Anyway, ytd met Collette @ Parkway busstop at 10am. She ate breakfast then we met Tracy @ the foodcourt. Aft that we went to Giant to get the stuff then met Charlotte. Then we all went to my house :D! (to prepare the stuff...)

Prepare liao then take cab to ECP. Then went to our pit, no. 27. Awhile later like at 2+ me and Tracy rented a double bike and cycled to Lagoon. Tracy sat infront, aft my failure in trying to handle the front ~_~"

Then we cycled back then tried to make the fire. People started coming too... The stupid fire took like 2hrs! Only successful with the help of Charlotte's dad, so pathetic right???

Hahahahaha. K, then we started cooking lah and eating :) Later on started playing truth or dare and stuff, but mostly truth. Funnnnn.

All photos on Facebook still. Guess my blog will start to become a wordy blog ahhh.

Wtv. Anw.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHARLOTTE & JOLENE!

aka. Mummy & Niece.

Also - HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FWITAI :3

don't know whether you recieved my SMS from Bali though... Heh.

The times have gone for the celebration of the ending of EOYS, but now the dreaded results are here.

Ahhhh! Today getting back Chinese then Geog. Scary.

Bye!

kimmie

I'm Back! Did You Miss Me?

2009-10-13T12:27:00.007+08:00

Yay! Science is OVER! Feels like a super big weight lifted off my shoulders :) Found a new blogskin, haha. It's so nice...

Hahahahaha! Okay so these few days have been studying like crazy. Science was damn hard I tell you! Like what the hell is a vascu- something, even worse, in the diagram the penis was smaller than the balls. LOL! Mr. A. was like smiling the whole way! Like smiling, smiling, watching us do his hard, hard, HARD paper. Then he was walking around and suddenly come and look at my paper I think, I felt like writing "I hate you Mr. A..." Zzz, but it's already over, so... nvm :l

Tomorrow is Maths Paper 2, then the next day is Chinese Oral and Listening. Then, BALI! Hehe. Can't wait to play with the underwater camera ;3

Suddenly, blogging seems very weird. Hahaha. Ohya, ytd was damn funny! Invited Amila, Dorea, Jie Yun and Stephenie to my house to study Science, so much fun. Ate pizza for lunch and watched Powerpuff Girls Z?? Hahahahaha. Amila left first, followed by Jie Yun then Stephenie and lastly, Dorea. Super fun. :D

These exam days are like more fun then my normal days? Lol. Vanessa also came back to SG on the 27th of Sept, (if I remember correctly). We went out on Monday 28th I think, to ChinaTown with her friend Sianzzz who is super tall! Then we went Suntec to take neoprints :) Before we went, she came in class! Amila and me had to hide her painted nails and I was like holding her hands tgt (to cover the nails) and covering her eyes (for surprise effect). Then when she went into class, she was greeted by the normal sight la haha! We (our clique) kept making alot of noise in the class room and our co-form was like shhh shhh LOL.

We also went SG Flyer with her, and then to Suntec again. Most of the pics are already on Facebook this this is going to be just a wordy post. Haha.

What other things happened...?

Ohya, me and Jie Yun went to Amila's house for Hari Raya! Super fun hahahaha. Had to eat with hands, and her mother said I'm a good guest :) Wahahaha.

Er... also had IT Project quite a long time ago. Donno whether I posted it anot... but it was a success I guess, (the video), we went to Jie Yun's house like 4 days during our Sept Hols. Haha!

Then recently, went for some Dragonboat event with Joey. Alot of fun.

Alot of things happened recently, hope it's always this fun!

Ohya! (3rd time I said this) My grades improved tremendously for CA4. Unfortunately, it's not really counted -_-" Well, it gave me alot of confidence that when I study, I can do much better.

Ciao for now :D Will be posting more soon, with exams over. Bye!

kimmie

2009-08-29T18:12:00.004+08:00

Hello! I won't be blogging for a longgg time I think.
EOYs coming,
& I've moved to blog.
.
errrr. byebye.

I'll be back soon :).

love, kimberlyn.

up uP UP!

2009-08-19T19:59:00.005+08:00

Break the barriers and conquer the Trophaeum Tower.

Train hard hard hard. Study hard hard hard. & of course keep good relationship w/ others. Ok wtcrap am I talking whtevr. &nw, got back results. Depressing MUCH :(

Let's start.
Chinese F9
Science A1
Math A1
Geog C5

awaiting Lit & English and that's it I guess :( okok so totally going to become a study freak now!

On the other hand. Training is progessing well, trying to improve every training and trying to keep myself satisfied after every training. Well so far so good! Slow & steadyyy :) Oks byeeee!

(aft. cooking on Monday w/ Amila)
COOKING SUCKS!!

kimmie

Just to make it a lil' undead.

2009-08-16T15:48:00.003+08:00

Hello. I'm gonna MIA till after tmr (science CA)
then re-do my whole blog.
cyas.

errr, I think I'll use this skin agn (yay?) idk dc.
oks whtevr. time to try to study go go go.
wtfzx, timetogrowup& live a, notsostupidlife. yayayay/ ok retarded.

kimmie

Mad, MAD, MAD, Gone.

2009-07-25T20:44:00.004+08:00

I think I'll be posting every Saturday only. It's been really busy, like hell! Idk why, suddenly I really can't finish my homework...

Okay, so you know the leadership thing right? Was super fun other than the fact that now got alot of things to do piled up above my school work. It's not even paperwork stuff, it's like arts and craft stuff so it's so lecheh. I know you don't know whatthehell I'm talking out nvm.

Touch Rugby! It's fun, but not really my type la (idk)? Yea, but I've nothing against it or towards it, just veryvery neutral. Just play loh...

What else? Okay, today. Canoeing!! Like damn shiok lor! Idk why, suddenly got new life? A goal to perfect my stroke? Yes, 90 degree 90 degree. Idc, I know I look stupid doing that drill but nvm. Yayayay! Then went eat at TM but felt damn extra. 2 Blisters, left hand, coz must keep the left hand loose since I'm right handed right? Haha...

That day, was super irritating, oks. Kept blah-ing LOR. Then quite PECEK, m-ing there damn long ARG want to just pull my hair out at how noob I am. Oks, stay sane and try to improve.

Ohya, I went to watch Harry Potter ytd. No spoilers for those who haven't watched lol. Someone stole my phone. so... Yea... then today went to collect sim card also, aft. TM-ing went home to sleep then went out to collect. Now I'm back.

Last note, everytime I see YOU, that line. I just feel like training harderrrrr and that I am so damn !@%#^* ZZZ... =.=

CONGRATS VIDYA
goodluck for tomorrow (:

kimmie

Taking it out on Grass.

2009-07-18T15:55:00.003+08:00

After finding out whether it was true or not, I was really really shocked. I definately knew that I wasn't supposed to get the answer so fast. I was so not prepared. I didn't know what to feel at all, I was just lost. I could feel a part of me was happy, acting as though nothing happened. I could feel the other part was not accepting the answer that I got. Till the day I find out what I really feel, I seriously, don't know what to do.

I am HAPPY now! Like seriously. Idk why? Maybe I'm taking the answer too seriously as no actions have been taken yet but, -IDK. Totally mixed emotions.

I feel like tearing myself apart. I know it's time to let go of the thing I'm holding back, but I just can't. Why!? ): so many feelings now. I feel like I haven't had a chance to express myself before the answer was given D: I feel like I'm giving up if I let go. Alot alot... I donwanna feel sad, yet I don't wanna see myself acting like it's nothing at all, because it is SOMETHING! Like in the middle of two worlds. My dreams, by this answer, have been shattered, BUT, new dreams have derived from it too. What do I want? I really don't know. I don't even know why I'm forcing myself to give out an answer now.

It's really hard. I don't know what to do. There's many things on the line with this decision, but can I risk it all? No right. Idk! I can't even express myself and scream the way I'm feeling now because I don't know what the hell I'm feeling. :'( Oks. I will stop thinking now.

The abv stuff ^ is what i wrote about few hrs ago. Then I went out to the pp. Ate berrylite coz mum keep saying it's supershiok. Bought ear studs + comic(YAY) then went to supermarket then headed home. Hahaha.

In the morning, stepped out of the house and went for a run. It was fuN. My stamina definately dropped like wayyy alot. Oks, adios!

kimmie

Wandering thoughts Part 2.

2009-07-17T17:24:00.004+08:00

:l ... I'm back.... Total sianz, kind of no face now to face some people ): Like what lah... Stupid bd. Nvm. Anw, sch was okay today, was quite sian last night because was rushing hmwks. Thx for waiting for me -.- ok maybe you not stupid. Donno whtcrapiamtalking. Aft. sch, needed to topup ezlink card and pass a prez, so went to Bedok Inter then topup, then pass prez then go home. Sianz I'm not angry just super ps. + Have alot of worries about some things.

Then yea. Ytd, went to Dairy Farm aft. sch (excursion for PW). Was like super waste of time, no offence. I mean why we want to just sit there for 30mins and talk to nature? l: Anw, was quite fun lah, at the beginning, in the bus and at the end. Hil, Shris, Vik, Jac and I were making people fall in the beginning where we were playing the rope game and in the end we succeeded! Then in the bus, listened to music and smsed. Then reach there liao, went to walk walk, walk until some open space then did reflections and sit alone for 30mins. SiAN! Then I was damn restless on the mat keep moving because I couldn't find a comfortable position. Aft the 30mins, we were split up into 3 grps to share our experiences of the 30mins. Then share liao then can play le. Played catching, then roll down the hill... Damn itchy aft. that! Then piggy-backed Hil and asked arnd for people to race with us but no1 wan ): Actually Shris wanted but couldn't find a partner. Then nvm, at the end I was able to carry Shris bridal style. Woots! Maybe one day I'll try that on Sylvia. Think she won't allow and will smack my face +.+ Then went back to sch, went to bubbletea shop then went home with Dorea :)

I know I act like there is nothing wrong, my dear puppet. I wonder if you feel angry or sad with me acting as if you are not affecting me at all. I'm selfish I know, but if I am acting or if this is for real, I will not tell you. Just to leave you in suspense and watch you suffer if you are feeling that way. It just makes me happy, and I won't say why. Today, by fate, coincidence or luck, we happened to cross paths. Something neither of us expected nor prepared to face. Well, at least I think you didn't and weren't.

Oks, so finish with my thoughts and onto the next set of thoughts. - I think I hurt alot of people, even the ones I love, I gotta stop this and think abt stuff. Haiya. got alot of thoughts sia. K, shall stop hereee. Go away thoughts.

kimmie

Or maybe I'm just crazy.

2009-07-14T17:40:00.005+08:00

In my world, I won't let you talk to anyone. Simply because, you are mine. No one can talk to you, play with you or even wave at you, only I can. Just because I'm selfish. You're my puppet and only mine, if someone were to see all my dolls, you'll be the one I lock away in the dark, so no one can even touch you, think of you, let alone know you exist.

For now, you are not mine, dear puppet. You are free for everyone to touch, something I do not like. It pains and makes me jealous to see you having fun with other people. If you were mine, I will never let you do so. Everytime I hear your laughter, I cringe, knowing that you might never be mine. Maybe soon, maybe not, I'll be the one that controls you, whatever you do dear puppet. No one will be able to do anything to you,

and you will love me, only me.

Oks. Random spam talk whatever. Anw.
Happy Birthday Justin :)
(Belated) Whoops ;x
Old ah pek is alr 17 :D

kimmie